I just wish I could type as fast as my head threw thoughts. I know that's been discussed but it's seriously one thing that really bugs me about me. It keeps me from getting the point across or the feelings expressed and I end up just keeping my mouth shut.
Oh yes I can relate. In my blog, I lamented that only a small fraction of my thoughts ever see the light of day. There's a whole universe that other people simply don't get to see.
Anyone ever try writing in a journal?? I love the idea and always start one with the intention of just letting my brain throw up on the page...but I never make it past the first page. I sit and think about what I want to write and if it's good enough to put on paper and end up writing about nothing that's actually wanting out. I get stage fright putting my own thoughts on paper. WTF is that? hehe
I can relate. This is especially true with incidents in the past where if I left my thoughts on paper, somebody else would find them and read them and of course mock me for thinking such things. You know how kids are. :rolli:
I find that less to be a problem today, but still....I always seek to keep my journals and such under tight guard.
I can relate to your feelings of not being able to write in your journals because you think it isn't forth putting on paper. It's something you have to gradually get used to, and just think it doesn't have to be great writing per se. In all probability, the only person reading this stuff is you - or people you show it to. So writing formalities are nothing you should worry about too much.
Heck, I'll tell you this right now that many of my thoughts are written down quite randomly. I even draw arrows showing the proper order that they should be read in. The most important thing to keep in mind at that moment is to just simply get the thoughts down. You can rearrange as you go, or do it later. Just get the thoughts down.
And these thoughts can be several pages long, or simply just a paragraph or two. It is quite satisfying when you see something written down.
So don't force yourself, just let it come to you gradually. I find it amazing to go back and see first-hand the development of my thoughts over time.