What is it like to be a feeler? I always wondered. To be primary Fe/Fi. Is it like the world vibrates somewhere inside of you... or I don't know.
It feels alive
It's got vibrant colours, which overstimulate to the point of pain at times, but way preferable to when it's numb and dull..that makes me feel dead inside..no point in living.
If you see like an earthquake on TV with people who need help you feel empathy compassion ..stuff like that? Because I don't really feel a thing.
When I hear about it, I don't feel it, I can distance myself. But yes, visual imagery is hard to ignore, and I can physically feel my heart cringe..I feel physical sensations at that point.
Or if a friend is in pain...I don't really feel anything either. I just try to improve things, but I don't really feel his pain.
I remember when I was on the seaside watching the sun from a remote place on the beach ...there weren't many people there...just the wind ..the sound of the sea...and the view. And I didn't really feel a thing. It was frustrating. I was just thinking about some random thing in my head.
I don't feel much.
I feel something strong only if it's related to me.
How do you feel everything?
I do feel it when a friend is in pain..even more so the closer a friend they are and the closer physically they are. Touching someone intensifies that feeling tenfold still.
As for the sunset or rise...I have to be in the mood. It requires being attuned to hte moment to notice it. It's just the sheer beauty of it that washes over you. You just stand still and gaze at the multitude of colours mixing, causing such beautiful shapes and shades to take place. The water washing upon the shore is a sound that causes a certain trance, as the beauty of the sunrise does, as it's regular, it's calming and it's serene..predictable, simple, elegant..almost like breathing in a way. Beautiful in its simplicity...just listening to that can calm your spirits and empty your head, which in turn induces a sense of peace.
Personally, I do think that everyone can experience this...but for some it's just buried deeper than others
I've found that when I sorta suit up to face the outside world coz I have to get shit done, or when I'm trying to figure out a logical puzzle..I'm way less prone to noticing these things. I have walls up, walls that allow me to do my job without getting distracted and making fatal mistakes (Ti) or walls that defend me agains the obstacles that I'm to face to get to my goal (Te).
I've also found that I refuse to have such a strong veneer on as it cuts my communications with other people in half. It reduces my radar on them. And I hate flying blind like that. It however also leaves me open to the risks of overstimulation and pain from sources that sorta require shields.
It is however possible, ime, to learn not only how to turn on and off the shields (which is the easiest part once you get over the fear, but also the least practical), it's possible to dim and strengthen the shields as you gain control over that aspect, in order to adjust to the situation in front of you
After a while, I learned to put a veneer on my sensitivity to dampen the first blow without making myself completely blind to what's going on and missing out on all the beautiful stuff out there.
Just my two cents.