Dwigie
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I have a seriously strange defense mechanism. Every single time something is going awfully wrong in my life or the one of someone I care about I go into what I call "smoke screen shield" mode.
I just get a complete blockage of any piece of information from the outside that could trigger a negative emotional response. Usually it's a creepy little laughter and a light feeling when things are seriously going wrong. It's either accompanied by the thought that everything will be alright soon or by the feeling that this is all a "bad dream". The worse the situation is the stronger the belief that everything will improve gets and that I will get through it somehow. However, that belief is empty because the feeling accompanying it betrays it. It's "desperate hope".
Basically, an unhealthy dose of denial. Most of the people around me get over it rather quickly, get themselves together and act but I just stagnate for a long period until all hell breaks loose inside my mind. (aka: breakdown, depression, etc...)
Afterward I'm able to move on.(not always entirely though)
Well, sometimes reality blows that smoke away and I'm just dumbstruck on the verge of thinking about jumping out the window. I feel "dead inside" could be the perfect sentence but it's not exactly the same because I feel like I'm "about to die". I've thought about it and I realize it could also simply be emotional immaturity disguised as "sensitivity".
Anyone here feel the same about "reality attacks"?
I mean everyone goes through denial when some things go wrong. That's got absolutely nothing to do with type. I just wonder if NFs are more prone, if it's more pronounced or If I just need a " healthy good kick in the butt".
I just get a complete blockage of any piece of information from the outside that could trigger a negative emotional response. Usually it's a creepy little laughter and a light feeling when things are seriously going wrong. It's either accompanied by the thought that everything will be alright soon or by the feeling that this is all a "bad dream". The worse the situation is the stronger the belief that everything will improve gets and that I will get through it somehow. However, that belief is empty because the feeling accompanying it betrays it. It's "desperate hope".
Basically, an unhealthy dose of denial. Most of the people around me get over it rather quickly, get themselves together and act but I just stagnate for a long period until all hell breaks loose inside my mind. (aka: breakdown, depression, etc...)
Afterward I'm able to move on.(not always entirely though)
Well, sometimes reality blows that smoke away and I'm just dumbstruck on the verge of thinking about jumping out the window. I feel "dead inside" could be the perfect sentence but it's not exactly the same because I feel like I'm "about to die". I've thought about it and I realize it could also simply be emotional immaturity disguised as "sensitivity".
Anyone here feel the same about "reality attacks"?
I mean everyone goes through denial when some things go wrong. That's got absolutely nothing to do with type. I just wonder if NFs are more prone, if it's more pronounced or If I just need a " healthy good kick in the butt".