I feel like ranting now... So, just going to rant here. Excuse me.
I got this job couple of weeks ago. Or more like a project, but for real money and all that. I needed to edit a bunch of tv adds. It's like the first "real" my kind of job I have managed to get. The job was in another city, but I was promised to get a ride there every day, so I figured it isn't a problem. The days were long because all the traveling.
Anyways, my editing was coming along just fine, and I was hoping to finish the job next week. But, last week the guy who I drove there with was sick, and I had to go by train, which cost me like a sixty euros a day, plus the travel time went up to five hours per day, so by thursday I didn't have any money left and I told the producer that I wont make it to work on friday. This night I get a call from another producer that I have been replaced with someone else. He also said he isn't happy for me not to being "up to the responsibility".
What the hell??? I have basically sacrificed myself to get there on time every day. Eight hours of work, five traveling! All my money is gone, I will barely survive till the paycheck comes in. And I am not up to the responsibility... And what's more, he hasn't even seen if my work was good or not. Now it might be that the next guy takes credit for my ideas. It also eats me that the project was left messy because I thought I could clean it all up on monday, so the next guy will be in deep shit with it anyways.
Last week I was so stressed all the time and even now I feel the adrenaline. Is it really worth it? Why don't I just go to a factory or something? I work my ass off and get no credit, I spend all of my money, and I feel like shit when I get home. I don't even remember the last time I've been this stressed over anything. (But I can't say they didn't warn me. There was funny rumors about this company... and it's athmosphere)