Te really makes me want to rebel for some reason as it tramples on my Ti sense of logic. (I am like YOU CANT TELL ME WHAT TO DO AND THINK I HAVE MY OWN MIND SCREW YOU TE) plus it tramples on my Fe as well. I like to think of Ti/Fe types (Both TPs and FJs) as being like the friendly nurse (She is acting all friendly) but with that nasty looking syringe as being Ti (I am cold, sociopathc and uncaring on the inside). I can act all warm and happy on the outside while being empty and cold on the inside. Like a baked Alaska i can be hot on the outside but on the inside there is no warmth at all.
I can somewhat relate to this.
My husband jokes that my super-power is to have anyone love me but only for five minutes "before the disdain starts to show
I am naturally friendly, I
can easily turn on the charm when I need to.
A great example are the employees at coffee shops and restaurants I frequent. I can strike up a conversation with a new employee that will make others think we've been friends for years. I even make a game of seeing how long it takes for them to put down what they're doing and greet me. (Usually less than a week)
My husbands tells me that when he goes to these places without me they do recognize him, but only as " That guy who shows up with Nichole." and always asks " You want her usual right? Oh...did you want something too?" and with a sigh he just tells them to "Make two of hers."
Those people probably think that I have a million friends- they would be wrong. Truth is I have a hard time getting along with most people and am aware that if I really knew them, I'd probably want nothing to do with them and more often than not, really don't give a shit what they have to say as I find most people to be boring, entitled,and extremely petty. Yeah, I am an E. I love being around people that I like, people who are engaging and make me feel alive.
That is not most people. I do not
like most people. I cannot even
relate to them. Even the friends that I do have, I cannot be around for long. Unless we are sharing in a pre-planned activity which requires a lot of attention.
They do not know how to be engaging or even interesting. Their idea of "conversation" is just spewing the same 3 memes of the month every 5 seconds ( saw them for Thanksgiving. I had never before heard the phrase " Dwarf intensifies" but within those three hours I had heard it so many times that if I ever hear it again I'm going to murder them with an Ice pick.
And, that sort of thing is very common here in Nerdopolis. TBH, nothing makes me feel so nihilistic as having to stand there and listen to that shit.
Sometimes it gets me a little down, but then I visit my husbands family; they are very rich, ambitious, friendly, successful people and they
love me.