=Qre:us;558029]Solving a knowledge (i.e., cracking its code, understanding) is the drug. And, that moment...my intellectual hit. For sure.
yes knowledge for sure, but for me i think its more about understanding...when I get the true understanding of a complex issue from someone, it tends to make me take them further into the "zone"..by that I mean more and more and more understanding and how it relates to something or someone else..its all about the interrelatedness...you know we have to find REALTIONSHIP or correlation with something...its not necess. about cause and effect, but it certainly tends to go there, but I am not out to prove what something caused, but rather, what something is RELATED to...its a kicker when i take an Sensor on this journey..they generally don't see the big picture and although it can be quite dull for them, sometimes its a real rush to see their eyes open and their emotions charged!!
Ah...addictions! My need to make a point to its greatest depth sometimes has me tripping over my words, too much overload of choices of how to convey. The perfect/right word. That gets understood.
Maybe that's why I sometimes wish to rather speak to those who don't speak my language. To me, it's one of the greatest lessons in learning how to convey ideas between humans. When one has minimal luxury of complex language at one's disposal.
So, when I do have the luxury of the English language at my disposal, it's an overload of how to pinpoint a thought from the myriad. I sometimes, thus, have run on-and-on-and-on&onnn sentences (with many bracketed side thoughts). I can't never explain enough. Like I missed just the right words/way to say it.
I'm also trying to lassoo that bad bull [in a china shop] ...in. Here's hoping
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Yep, i totally agree....i can run on in an effort to gain more understanding and depth or relatedness. I am seeking an answer that will make more complete sense because then I can let it go and leave it be. If I can't make sense of something, it tends to linger and hang around. I hate that!! especially when emotions or good friends are involved. I think we are sometimes trying to understand and rationalize emotional states and I have sworn off ever deciding how someone felt.
They must tell me personally and i absolutely refuse to decide for them. Only thru their words and eyes can I more fully understand their subjective frame of reference. I will say that I am letting this go on a different level. At times, I can just feel empathy or it seems like I am hit with a wave of feeling from others. Its like this invisible, but palatable cloud or aura. I feel its their emotions, but I can't aways FEEL them accurately. I CAN FEEL an emotional tidal wave, but I CAN PERCEIVE and SEE what they are feeling, usually bec. I can read people so well most of the time. People dont realize that they give off all kinds of small behaviors and body language that tells on them. Its almost like I do an instant body scan like a damn laser scanner and instantly take in and process a total image boiled down to what is going on. I really didn't think about this in detail because we tend to think everyone else is doing the same thing, but i now realize everyone ISN'T doing this.. I trust my perceptions a lot, but i think I can be more objective than real emotional types.
I really didn't realize for a long time how much I do this, but I have been told so, so MANY MANY times that I read people like a book. I started to look more closely at what exactly I was doing. For me, its now some questions mixed with listening to my emotional inner voice. A combination of the two work together in order to act as a check on each other. If I detect an emotion mixed with a physical and visual perception that "matches", then I tend to trust and communicate that conclusion about someone. It surprises even me at how much I pick up on.
I recently was asked after meeting a complete stranger for about 3 minutes, what I thought of them. I did a check on my perceptions and emotions and told them what I thought. They were flabbergasted at what I had picked up on. This isn't unusual for me, but was unusual was that I had just met what most would consider a closet male whore and possible pedophile, but when others had been introduced to them, they almost always said "oh what a nice guy". " he was pretty cool" He was not a weirdo type.
Even I was surprised by what I had perceived about him...its nice to know I can do this, however I like to get feedback from someone who has known them awhile. IN this case, they had known them for quite some time.
I also have been told that I am in touch with my feelings very consistently. AGain, I really didn't realize until I started looking at what I do. Its like there is a constant barometer on in me. When I feel anything, I am essentially immediately aware of my inner change of state. I change my focus and attention like a damn lighthouse sweep of its light and flash all my attention on my emotions. Then my introverted thinking takes over and BAM! I can identify with a clarity that surprises me. Very fine shades of emotions and then I normally had to figure out WHY and WHERE they were coming from. Gratefully, I dont' do this all the time anymore.. Experiencing emotion without having to analyze them all the time has been a real relief for me! Can anyone identify with any of this?