I've kind of had xNTP as a second option for a while, but the stereotypes about being too emotional/being empathetic naturally equating to an F type kind of have held me back from completely settling on it, or leaning towards that typing, until more or less recently. Talking about my own emotions never really came naturally to me and is like pulling teeth, and I tend to waver on values. I can step outside of a situation, and see it for what it is, and have an inner framework. I go through periods where I barely feel anything, while there are emotions lurking beneath the surface, and picking things apart has always come more naturally than peopling. I don't view emotions as a bad thing, but the realm of emotions has been a weird area for me. I'm definitely not 100% a cold robot, but in some limbo. Being at least auxiliary F is at least somewhat of an option, but there are a lot of qualities I possess that seem very anti high F.
Those fe-ish qualities I do have can just be attributed to E9. Do I have certain sensitivities and deep-running emotions? It would be a blatant lie to deny it, but everyone has T as well as F functions, it's more which one manifests more and stress, anxiety and other circumstances in life may make it blurry. I also take a more or less neutral stance on things. Life/society may force females to be higher F or higher on the scale of agreeability. People who know me well can see the potential for an NT type.