Just when you thought reading might make you less of a tool...
you get points simply for saying the word tool. What a perfect description of him though.
Half my life I heard negative comments about introversion and it's truly BS. Introversion is simply the way that I deal with personal energy.
But society lables it "bad."
Yes. I've always been led to believe I would fail at life forever if I am to stay the way I am. I personally see it as alot of less stress and a bit of a reasurrance that I'm stable within myself and posess my own means of doing things.
I'm a proud introvert. I have no desire to change, and you can't make me!
Of course we're losers- and I'm DAMN proud of being one!
yes. Agreed.
A little hard to swallow, but... yes, that's the kind of person I've always tried not to be, so it only makes sense. But... what if you don't even know how to jump in in the first place, because you can't even see how to get to the pool? If I knew how to jump in, I'd probably be able to figure it out from there, somehow...
I'm starting much, much further back than most people seem to think, here. Unfortunately I always manage to come across as far more well-adjusted than I actually am.
This is the point where you sit there and look at yourself and go "My god this is pathetic. Do I dislike the way I am? (y/n) Do I want to change? "(y/n)
If you answered yes to those questions (lol, sales pitch), sometimes you simply have to tell yourself that you've fallen behind. When I get all whiny and mopey, I talk to A) Myself because I'm an ass and get over it quickly, or B) my other INTJ friend who is an ass and I get over it quickly. I realized at some point that there's people SO MUCH worse off than me, in life's physical and societal aspects and within themselvs, that my issues need to be dealt with and I have to move on. I have a similar problem- I've fallen back into a but of a slump, especially with art. I need a scholarship to get into school, and art was and still is my way out. And yet I'm one of the least productive kids in the class. I can blame it on "Oh, I've had alot of new responsibilities at home like making dinner and cleaning it up and supervising my younger siblings and oh there's so much pain in my life blah blah failed family that b roke apart oh poor me", or "yeah well I'm just so tired and I can't focus at home because of the yelling and I'm not allowed to do this and this and I have this responsibility others don't, etc. etc.", when in all reality its my fault. I have to make time if it means that much to me. Maybe walk a bit faster to get home in less time, clean up early, etc. Either way at the end of the day it comes down to the fact that I live a pampered life in comparison to millions everywhere else. I have a home, I have a bed to call my own. Sure I'm definitely not the average American with a happy rich family, but I have so much compared to the rest of the world.
Some see this strategy as self-deprivation or bad for my self-esteem, when in all reality its what gets me to realize how lucky I am. Maybe this can work for you in a sense. Now this post is like a million miles long because I felt the need to quote every other person on here and went hideously off topic, but still. Not to be a hard-ass or underestimate your mental prowess (because honestly I'd hate if someone did that to me. This is more of a compliment, if anything) but, well, get over yourself. You obviously have the capacity and ability to, something it takes years for some and never for most. If you'd like not to lay there all day then go
do something. I realize oftentimes mental blocks are much more difficult than real-life ones, but if you honestly want to be the person you envision, you need to get over yourself first.
And now I sound like the biggest asshole on earth, haha. Makin' friends, makin' friends...