SwimmerGal97
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- Sep 19, 2014
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In short, I feel lost, want to work out where to go from here but don't know how to figure that out. I'm halfway through my a levels and as the summer holidays started today, it seems like a good time to decide on what my next step will be now I can think clearly away from school stress and pressure. Right now, I feel very pressured time wise into making a decision- yr13 starts in 7 weeks and we are all expected to apply to uni and in order to enrol into the year, besides the required as grades, you need to present your personal statement. I would love to go to uni, but for the independence and experience as opposed to any study. As I don't know what I want to study, I wouldn't be 100% committed to my studies so it seems like a waste of £40,000+. Ive considered gap years, apprenticeships, employment and I just don't know. The more I'm pushed into a decision the more I pull away and put it off, I hide behind 'masks', saying I want to do this or that because not knowing isn't an option. I've seen careers advisors and whilst lovely, there's a limit to what they can do and I find myself lying to them. Not deliberately or anything, but I think I struggle to be honest with myself sometimes, I find it hard to accept that I'm not a perfect well rounded student and that my ideal day is sat in bed binge watching TV shows and yes, tv and film watching is possibly my biggest 'hobby :/ '. I'm doing a levels in chem, bio, maths and art with further as levels in English literature and history, and even with all that breadth I still don't feel inspired or driven or fulfilled. I know its okay to not know, and its fine to just go with the flow but, to continue that metaphor, my 'river of life' has no flow. It feels stagnant. This has turned more into a stream of consciousness than anything but it helps to get things out of my head. What do I do? Do I just need to get out more and find a hobby? How do I start being truly honest with myself about what I want?