[MENTION=5494]Amargith[/MENTION]
Sounds quite similar to me. Except for the meditation bit (I'm actually quite good at it) and cars/running into stuff. I'm actually a good driver, it does stress me though.
I usually don't bump into things walking around unless it's dark or something has been moved recently. I do get hilarious cases though where somebody moves a chair or something and I no longer know what to do with myself. This happened the other day at dinner with my family when my dad decided to watch TV with his dinner - it left an empty chair and I was really confused about where to sit so I stood there for about 3 minutes, dumbfounded LOL
Hehe, you use your Si to navigate, I guess
The problem is, that I spent years being a passenger in the car, so I zoned out. It has become *such* a habit that, when I tried to learn how to drive, it became dangerous. I tried twice. It didnt help that my parents forced me to learn how to drive a car and Im notorious for rebelling when forced. When I went to do my exam for the second time round, I was truly relieved: someone was sitting next to me to hit the brakes if I fucked up (and I did, twice, once on the way to the exam center, once on the test), either I would get my license or I wouldnt, and I could finally decide for myself if and when I would drive a car, instead of being forced. Ive never been so relaxed for an exam..and yet, I somehow managed to almost drive into someone. The DMV guy said he had never seen anything like it in 19 years. I just...could not care less about driving a car...so I escape, the way I have done for years: into my dreams, into another world really. The scary part is I dont even realise Im doing it, so it isnt like I can turn it off
As for meditation...once I realized that Id been doing this thing that I was trying to achieve for years without trying, I learned how to do it on command..just relax and let your mind go blank, or let it muse on the object of fascination. But when actively chasing it, I was too antsy for results, ya know? And as the state was *so* natural to me, it didnt occur to me that that was what I was to achieve through meditation exercises.
i remember when we first got the Wii bord, back in the day. There is a meditation exercise with a candle on there. My intj, ever competitive, had unlocked all the exercises and was trying to get top score on all of them. The meditation one involved sitting still on the board for I believe 1 min or like 90 seconds. He failed miserably within 10 seconds every time and got frustrated. I laughed, causing him to go: you try it then! I shrugged, and was intrigued enough to do so. He got his perfect score on his game record. It just wasnt him that set it. I just tuned out the world, focused on the virtual candle and sat still for the required time, and that was that. Of course, that caused him to wanna figure out the mechanics of what Id just done and recreate it himself. I dont recall if he did ever figure it out
That's what I'm getting at. That sort of present sensation of connectedness and something above the concrete world.
Yeah well it has its downsides, believe me