I sort of can relate to what you mean, I think. When I first became interested in typology, I struggled a lot with my type and part of the reason is because there is an abundance of stereotypes in type descriptions online. So, for example, NTs are almost always described as being essentially geniuses and to possess flawless logical reasoning, etc. So, as someone who generally thinks of herself as at least a somewhat smart person, I always resented this because it sort of makes it sound like, in order to be smart, you must be an NT, and if you're not an NT, then you're probably not that smart or you can't measure up. So it was sort of bitterness/envy. The more I studied typology, though, it became quite apparent that those are really just stereotypes, and while there might be certain trends with certain types or type clusters, such trends or descriptions definitely do not preclude you from possessing certain qualities of a type other than your own.
So, if part of your problem is admiring NTs or being intimidated by them based on type descriptions you've read, it might be some consolation to think of it in these terms. Just because your iNtuition or Thinking preferences aren't as strong doesn't mean you can't be conceptual ever or be logical ever, or whatever. And, as some others have already said, it just means that you have certain strengths that those types don't necessarily have (and, as a Thinking type myself, don't let Thinking types' dismissal of the importance of values and "emotions" persuade you that they aren't just as important in their own ways. haha).
So, in short, I guess I just had to do a lot of studying and stuff, but I eventually learned to embrace not being an NT or anything else because I studied enough to come to realize their flaws rather than just hearing about their strengths, and to realize the sort of BS that was keeping me from embracing my own type.