Aaah, well, I hope this doesn't really disappoint everyone. :c
He DID continue to remind me, almost every day for a week. Somewhere in the middle of this he started dating the ENFP again. (Although one of my friends who has third period with him says he overheard him talking about her, and said that he went to her house/she went to his house sometime over the weekend and it was really "awkward," or something. He is not 100% sure about her, but he's still dating her. Again. I'm not trying to be hopeful, I am sincerely confused: why would an ISTJ do this?) When he reminded me after he started dating her again I had no idea what to do, I wasn't sure if I should tell him anymore because he was officially taken, so I just sort of froze and didn't say anything and he said, "okay... maybe later, then?" and I was like, "yeah." x_x
First of all, at least comfort yourself in the fact that you have good taste in guys. It's very chivalrous and kind of him to remember what was bothering you and to remind you that you wanted to talk about something important.
The next day he caught me and said, "heyyy, so we never had that talk," and I said in a voice that was most likely inaudible that I wasn't sure if I should tell him anymore. "You could write it down for me in a note," he said, and I asked if he was sure. And then he sort of didn't really look at me and said, "Well, I could probably GUESS... but it wouldn't be the same as you telling me." (To this, several of my female friends told me I should have asked him to guess, but it freaked me out so much that there was no way I could have been so quick on my feet verbally.) So I meeped and said okay. :U
Good call on your part, guessing games aren't really the best way to go. I mean, that makes what you want to say sort of trivial, and we can tell that it's way more important than that to you. Plus you don't get to say what you need to say.
I wrote him a short and apologetic note and tried my best to be as to-the-point as I could. It was basically just "I love you" and some explaining why I've acted the way I have, obviously I wasn't telling him to dump his girlfriend for me or anything. I gave it to him at the end of the day and he smiled and thanked me. I was horribly nervous.
The next day he greeted me like normal and was very friendly, and I was quite disappointed in myself for wincing and not really being able to look at him. And as he was leaving he looked over at me from the door and was like, "Oh. And I read your note....... yeah," making this weird face that I had never seen him make before that was sort of like a smile, but... not really? :/ I just looked at him with what I'm sure was truly pitiful face, and didn't say anything. And he walked out.
Okay, WHAT? That's it? Oh, that must drive you
crazy. You poor thing, he doesn't even acknowledge the contents with coherent words? Uuuurgh. I'm sorry. You get hugs.
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But at least he still wants to be friends and is being kind to you about it. If this guy were a jerk (which he
isn't, I can tell--plus you don't seem to be the sort to fall for the jerk species
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) he'd be all, "blahblahblah oh yeah this girl liked me can you believe it? I mean srsly, wtf?" I'm sorry, though. I mean, I know it still doesn't make things easier.
So that's the story. I am really glad that he still greeted me like normal, I hope we can still be friends. It would be so awful to loose him completely. :C I'm sorry if you guys feel like I have wasted your time! I do feel better, in a way, now that I have told him, (which I suppose is why he wanted me to tell him?) although it still hurts a lot. At the moment I am trying my best not to think about it too much, but I knew I had to post the results here. Knowing me, I will probably continue to still be in love with him for a while yet... and once I get over it I am sorely tempted to go back into my whole "I never want to be in love" mindset again, only this time ten times stronger. :c My ISTJ is very dear to me but I'm afraid he hasn't been very good for my poor little brain, especially considering that I am already somewhat prone to depression. :/ Romantic love is just not a good idea for someone like me.
Oh, Tea Party, no! Listen, I don't know you in real life, but from what you've posted you seem to be one of the sweetest people I've ever (never?) met. (I kind of want to befriend an ISFJ now thanks to you, to be honest.
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) I don't know if this guy will eventually fall for you instead of the ENFP--I mean, I'm not a mindreader or anything. But d@v3 and Costrin are right. Maybe you should take a little time to yourself. I'm not saying to shun the boy or anything, but remember to hang out with other friends, pamper yourself a bit. You are a sweet, sweet person. You haven't wasted our time at all! Just remember to hold your head high and enjoy life anyway, because in the long run, he's just one boy. One boy out of billions in this big old world. And even if he's not your boyfriend, he's a good friend, and you can never have too many of those. Just give it time.
Good luck, Tea! I'm not sure if this post said anything (I really need to more concise and less rambly), but I hope it helps. If you need to PM anyone, don't hesitate to talk to me--I've gone through what you have, twice, and I know it's not easy. Mad hugs!
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