I Tonya
Rythym of the night
- Joined
- Jun 24, 2018
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- 567
- MBTI Type
- ESTP
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- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
After some careful consideration I realize I'm an e4w5 and it got me thinking.... How am I happy in my natural state? Over the years of containing my temperamental nature bc of being pushed into acting a certain way to stay in my house. My parents wanted to shut me down so profusely threaten me with isolation and living in third world country with my grandma. To some extent they broke my spirit and it was really fucking hard. I always tried to contain my anger bc of the way my parents would beat my ass if I didn't, and they themself would get angry so that also made not wanna gt upset- therefore turning my anger into tears.
This new year, I had a sudden realization. Something snapped in me wondered why tf am I trying to keep the peace of these peasants they call family. That started a spark in me and I wanted to say IT REALLY MADE ME HAPPY CUZ I HAVEN'T FELT THAT LITTLE ATTITUDE SINCE I WAS 15!!! So tell me sexy e4, do you feel most comfortable in your natural state of mind? I know there's things like talking it out and what not, but be honest.... Is trying to contain your sadness/fear/pain/anger really that happy? Is pretending to be happy when you're not really that appealing in the way they call "better u" bs?
This new year, I had a sudden realization. Something snapped in me wondered why tf am I trying to keep the peace of these peasants they call family. That started a spark in me and I wanted to say IT REALLY MADE ME HAPPY CUZ I HAVEN'T FELT THAT LITTLE ATTITUDE SINCE I WAS 15!!! So tell me sexy e4, do you feel most comfortable in your natural state of mind? I know there's things like talking it out and what not, but be honest.... Is trying to contain your sadness/fear/pain/anger really that happy? Is pretending to be happy when you're not really that appealing in the way they call "better u" bs?