Feels like going nowhere. No one to talk to, not happy with where you are. Can't really solve this problem so it's frustrating. Just feeling down and no one can understand you. Not happy with life.
I usually come to this forum to rant. I know this isn't my blog but I feel like some may understand what I'm going through.
I just been feeling like this more often now and I'm having hard time dealing with it. The frustration also goes deeper and deeper every time. It's getting worst as time goes by.
I know that no one can help me but myself and I need to change if I don't want to feel this way. changing how I think is almost impossible for me. I'm just lost with my life right now.
It sounds typical for INTPs. I went through it, and my 15-year-old INTP is going through it now too. There's just a lot of wandering that happens when one enters adulthood, lots of uncertainty about where to go next.
I think what happens is that a lot of life contentment is actually built on other things besides the Ti+Ne combo we come to rely on in life. Those things can tell us how the world works and help us evaluate truth, but it does not teach us how to live nor what makes us personally feel fulfilled. Meanwhile, social confidence and skills tend to be at a minimum, which puts up another wall and leaves one feeling even more isolated.
INTPs do better once out of high school, for one, and entering areas of higher learning. Not just because of the ability to explore more knowledge, but because we find more people who "get us" in those environments and socially things become a bit easier. Otherwise, we are the ones who have to let ourselves change to a degree, in order to make better friends in the environment we are in.
Also, INTP flexes... especially in areas outside of the "knowledge" category. you probably can't budge on what you think is true, but you probably flex to situations and other people's opinions a lot in terms of how you behave day to day where you do not have any opinion. This can become depressing; I know I ended up feeling like a pawn.
For me, I did not have an easy road. I tried to find things I loved -- pet fields of interest, activities involving nature (hiking, exploring, etc.). Collect what friends who "really got me" along the way and invest in those friendships by initiating conversation on a regularly basis. Finding people to do things with.
But it took me a lot of times of being unhappy with my life before I finally figured out what I wanted and needed. INTP needs to have a goal or an obsession, it seems, in order to be motivated. There has to be a purpose. There is no impetus to do things that make no sense, so we just drift. When I was miserable, I realized what I was doing then wasn't working. So then I tried other things. I don't think INTP has a good sense of self-desires in a vacuum; we need to put ourselves in new situations and experience new things, then either mark it as a big "a-ha!" or else cross it off our list as not what we want.
Ride it out, don't give up, try lots of things. Something will stick with you. Also be willing to feel, rather than think; if you need to, explore your feelings using your mind, but meanwhile let yourself feel your feelings. Feelings drive desire; you lack desire right now; we tend to discount feelings if we're in "thinking" mode, but we're human and need our feelings in order to "feel" content.