IllusoryReverie
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- Feb 17, 2013
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- 4w5
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- sp/sx
No, I don't ever miss being depressed. I feel like even being out of a complete depression I still experience very lengthy states of melancholy, which encourage negative emotions at times, which, in a sense I suppose could add a certain emotional depth which I can appreciate when it isn't too terribly severe. But I don't feel like I could and ever would miss feeling extremely depressed. I don't want to feel like I'd rather be dead. That's what depression felt like to me; wishing I was dead all the time. I get upset when I see people tossing around the term when they're having a bad day or week. It seems as though many people are confused as to what depression really is. Mine has mostly been biochemical, but of course my tendency to withdrawal and isolate myself from others while depressed only further encourages the feelings of loneliness that come with it. So I guess in that sense it can be situational for me as well. Some people would just say, well if you were feeling that lonely, then why didn't you just see people? Because I didn't have the energy in me to socialize. It felt very chore-like and mentally straining- trying to make conversation when I always felt tired enough as it was. I guess there are various levels/states of depression, but I sure as hell don't miss mine.