Here is my point:
If you truly desire personal growth and to learn more about yourself, then you need to actually listen to people a bit more. I am here to tell you (as nicely as I can over an online post) that you come off as extremely immature, inexperienced with reality, unnecessarily aggressive, and blissfully unaware of how people view you. Example, I read a post about some interaction you had with a police officer. I tend to believe you have added in some hyperbole into your tale in how your aggressive actions made a police officer back down from you.... It sounds far more like some kind of fantasy interaction that you had given how obsessed you are with being badass, who is the most badass, what is considered badass, etc. Even if this situation did take place, do you really think it is intelligent to treat an officer of the law as such? Why dance on the line and give him an excuse to toss you in jail for a night?
You have created a character role for yourself, and it strikes false notes on all levels for the majority of your posts.