I could have typed that paragraph.
I think self-awareness can be this huge thing that makes leaps across people and connects to other human beings. When you said above that you were 'hiding from yourself' that resonates with me. The younger I was the more
unspoken fear I had in me. Admitting it or showing it was a weakness or vulnerability that was not comfortable and therefore I wouldn't let anyone (even myself) get past them.
The more I became aware of this and faced it the more comfortable I got with connecting with others (I don't feel a need to do so just more comfort in doing it if need be). Also, you are around my age. I think life experience (if learned from) can make for a very well rounded type and I see that in you. I don't know what I'm really trying to say here. This is a conversation that would be so easy in person but typing it I have to think in sequence and that almost destroys the gist of what I'm trying to say. If that makes sense.
I remember you and I had very similar results on some test we took on one of the online matrices. Funny that people are saying ESTP because I've gotten a few people PM me and ask if Ive ever considered that I'm an ESTP. I'm pretty solidly an introvert. So..not really. The last test I took the four top functions I used were listed in order as: Ti, Se, Si, Fi ...that's not even a typeset!
So who knows! Maybe you're just well-balanced!