tearsforfears
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These are the main things that leave me confused.. When I was little(started at around 7 or 8) I got bullied by my older brother about my weight everyday. I'd do it back to defend myself but it messed with me and my self-esteem. I became paranoid that people were thinking i'm fat. I mean I was but I didn't think I looked that bad in the mirror but in pictures I looked bigger than i thought and it bothered me that i looked like a different person.. also pressure from my mom telling me I needed to lose weight all the time. It seems like most INTPs could give less of a fuck about their weight and such but couldn't being bullied emotionally by a family member at such a young age have a negative impact on your development? I didn't care about how I dressed really until high school. At home though I'm a slob. I don't care about how I look, I know it's gross but I'll go days and even weeks without showering until I actually have to go out. I also have untreated adhd and have struggled through school and couldn't be bothered I feel like I didn't learn shit because I couldn't focus I was so absent minded and lost in thought getting me to pay attention was impossible. A friend let me try their meds a few times and I felt like for the first time in my life I was smart.
Going back to the self image issues, I was determined to lose weight I researched for hours everyday diet pills that work and was very indecisive and constantly getting sidetracked and neglecting my schoolwork I just wanted to not worry about my weight anymore. I know a TON about nutrition now I've studied and read a lot about it. I think if i'm an INTP ,which I seem to get more of on these tests than INFP, then I applied my 'wanting to know the truth' mindset to that. my weight has caused me emotional distress due to how I was fucked with mentally for years but now since I've lost it I don't care as much. I don't talk to my brother anymore (haven't talked to him in years since I was 13 now i'm 18) though he lives in the same house I get anxious around him.
So to summarize, could being bullied like that as a young child and having untreated adhd distort ones mind and leave them confused about who they truly are?
Going back to the self image issues, I was determined to lose weight I researched for hours everyday diet pills that work and was very indecisive and constantly getting sidetracked and neglecting my schoolwork I just wanted to not worry about my weight anymore. I know a TON about nutrition now I've studied and read a lot about it. I think if i'm an INTP ,which I seem to get more of on these tests than INFP, then I applied my 'wanting to know the truth' mindset to that. my weight has caused me emotional distress due to how I was fucked with mentally for years but now since I've lost it I don't care as much. I don't talk to my brother anymore (haven't talked to him in years since I was 13 now i'm 18) though he lives in the same house I get anxious around him.
So to summarize, could being bullied like that as a young child and having untreated adhd distort ones mind and leave them confused about who they truly are?