What Are You Feeling II: The Sequel & The Last Crusade & Search for & Revenge of Khan &The Secret of the Ooze

[Earl Grey]

I was prepared for combating cravings and it was rather easy, but after more than a month of sobriety, I was not prepared for intense intrusive thoughts about alcohol. I think this is stemming from something else going on in my head subconsciously.

It's only been a little over a month. You're not entirely out of the habit yet- it's like the reflex to flinch away from fire when it comes close. You'll grow out of it. Persist, you can do this! Hope you figure out whatever the underlying issue may be, and cut yourself some slack in other ways so you don't burn yourself out.

 

[Saturnal Snowqueen]

Like a bunch little mice are chewing holes in my brain, like cheese...

 

[The Cat]

Intrusive thoughts. Whisperings and warnings, questions, so many questions. Coalescing; organizing. An aesthetic, an image, a personification in fiction...these could be the intrusive thoughts that form my dark faery tale creature.... we must write soon or all is lost.

 

[Earl Grey]

 

[Saturnal Snowqueen]

 

[Earl Grey]

aaave.. mariiiiiiiiiiiiii...iiiii... aaaaaaaaa

 

[The Cat]

I'll remove the cause...
...but not...the symptom.​

 

[Coriolis]

 

[Siúil a Rúin]

Somewhat relieved. I've been sick and recovering from shingles vaccine and such the last few weeks, and then I've been re-organizing all my stuff and getting a few headaches from overworking. It's mostly done, so everything feels more settled and like I can rest and then hopefully think and create.

 

[The Cat]

Started seeing a new therapist today. They think they can really help me. So hopeful in that regard.

 

[Maou]

The nervousness that comes with realizing how fucked I'd be if a Tornado came my way at my new house.

 

[Siúil a Rúin]

In a few minutes, after rush hour settles, I go to get my car registered in this new state with new license plates. I'm weirdly very nervous about it. I have all the paperwork, but official paperwork and such makes me intensely nervous.

 

[Luminous]

In a few minutes, after rush hour settles, I go to get my car registered in this new state with new license plates. I'm weirdly very nervous about it. I have all the paperwork, but official paperwork and such makes me intensely nervous.

I can relate. I had to pick up new license plates recently and that made me nervous. Hope it went well for you!

 

[Hermit of the Forest]

 

[Siúil a Rúin]

I can relate. I had to pick up new license plates recently and that made me nervous. Hope it went well for you!

The drive there wasn't bad and there were no lines, but I had to pay $200+ for last year and will pay it again in June. It's okay. I'm thankful it's done. Now I'm all set.

 

[SD45T-2]

In a few minutes, after rush hour settles, I go to get my car registered in this new state with new license plates. I'm weirdly very nervous about it. I have all the paperwork, but official paperwork and such makes me intensely nervous.

I can relate. I had to pick up new license plates recently and that made me nervous. Hope it went well for you!

Us Californians be like

 

[GoggleGirl17]

I hadn't taken hormonal birth control in a while since I have a copper IUD, and I'm remembering why; I feel batshit insane. I'm depressed. I have no motivation to do the simplest things and can't tolerate any kind of pressure. I also have no clarity of thought. My mind feels fuzzy if I try to think and I'm having irrational emotional reactions to things. I feel like I am all emotion right now and easily overwhelmed. Nope, not messing with my hormones again.

 

[Earl Grey]

I want some fucking grilled cheese.

 

[The Cat]

And so it goes...the cycle repeats, the pattern remains unbroken, all of this has happened before and all of it will happen again. I have something to tell you about the future, but we have to see this through to the end. A part of me swims in the stream, but I'm also standing upon the shore. The Current never takes me down stream. You were born to a woman who believed that suffering was good for the soul, and so you suffered. Sometimes at the hands of others and sometimes by your own will. Because you hear her voice in your head every day...and you want her to be right. Because then that means the problem is you, not the world in which you must inhabit. We are dancing macabre spinning our wheels into infinity determined to hit every rock possible on our way down the mountain.

34 Seasons and counting.​

 

[Siúil a Rúin]

Having a bit of a social crash after a reunion weekend. Have a friend I'm worried about and probably said too much. I work so hard to understand people, but never feel like I can. If someone takes a lot of your money and is sometimes mean and doesn't really give back, that's objectively a bad thing, right? Why would someone tolerate that? I know feelings of guilt are involved, but the wrong people are feeling guilty. /cryptic woes