Fluffywolf
Nips away your dignity
- Joined
- Mar 31, 2009
- Messages
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- MBTI Type
- INTP
- Enneagram
- 9
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
I've personally experienced a hardship after which I pretty much dropped Fe and effectively became 'unemotional'. Not really a sociopath, although I suppose I appeared as one.
By focusing more on Ne, and neglecting my Ti (because Ti was too hard to fool). And ofcourse usage of alcohol (So I didn't have to bother with Ti), I thought was the only way of dealing with the trauma. Since using Fe would just be like a bomb going off and ultimatly I wanted to prevent myself from doing more harm. However, I did feel like I just wanted to be 'along for the ride'. Essentially unexistant. I wanted to be a shadow amongst people.
After some time, in a rather confronting situation (approximatly 2 years after the traumatizing event) the realization came that I really needed to change.
This is when I developped a strong Fi over the course of a year in order to put everything back into perspective and align myself once more to society. Now, I had no knowledge of cognative functions at the time, this was a natural process for me. But by starting focusing inwards, feeding an internal 'scale of justice' with my Ti-Ne. Processing information with the aim to live a better life. As well as the realization that Ti-Ne is not infallable. And that life is too short to live solely by facts. I felt I had to fill in enough gaps with Fi. So I did, dealt with the trauma and ever feeling awesome and great now. Within reason ofcourse. As far as my Ti allows.
I notice much more INTP's with a high Fi as well, and wondered if they too got it, due to dealing with hardship?
By focusing more on Ne, and neglecting my Ti (because Ti was too hard to fool). And ofcourse usage of alcohol (So I didn't have to bother with Ti), I thought was the only way of dealing with the trauma. Since using Fe would just be like a bomb going off and ultimatly I wanted to prevent myself from doing more harm. However, I did feel like I just wanted to be 'along for the ride'. Essentially unexistant. I wanted to be a shadow amongst people.
After some time, in a rather confronting situation (approximatly 2 years after the traumatizing event) the realization came that I really needed to change.
This is when I developped a strong Fi over the course of a year in order to put everything back into perspective and align myself once more to society. Now, I had no knowledge of cognative functions at the time, this was a natural process for me. But by starting focusing inwards, feeding an internal 'scale of justice' with my Ti-Ne. Processing information with the aim to live a better life. As well as the realization that Ti-Ne is not infallable. And that life is too short to live solely by facts. I felt I had to fill in enough gaps with Fi. So I did, dealt with the trauma and ever feeling awesome and great now. Within reason ofcourse. As far as my Ti allows.
I notice much more INTP's with a high Fi as well, and wondered if they too got it, due to dealing with hardship?