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- MBTI Type
- ISTP
- Enneagram
- 947
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
I've chosen these two questionnaires to answer. I would like to know your opinion about what you think my type is, since I've had doubts about it for a while now
I hope my English is understandable enough
The other one:
And that's it. I had to put them under spoiler, otherwise this message would have been enormous. I usually don't talk so much, but in some questions I wrote a lot because I think it was important to make my point of view clearer
If it can help, I think my enneagram is 9w8 4w3 7w8 sx/sp (but if you have another opinion on my enneatype, you're welcome to comment on it as well, or confirm what I think if you feel it's right)
As for cognitive functions, in tests I usually score Se first, Fi and Ti second, Si, Fe, Te have the lowest scores and Ne and Ni are just there in the middle
I hope my English is understandable enough
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I am a girl of 22 and I am from Italy. I don't have any particular religious belief as I am an agnostic, even though I've always been fascinated with studying mythologies and religions of any kind, and politically I think I can be defined as green/left-wing. As for impairments, as far as I know I was diagnosed with cyclothymia (a milder form of bipolar, which I'm taking medication for, therefore at the moment it's under control) and body dysmorphia
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
ISTP and ISFP. I've considered myself to be an ISTP for several years actually, but recently I've had doubts, mainly tied to the fact that up to a while ago it was very difficult for me to deal with any feelings that weren't the constant swinging from depression to hypomania; in the end, therefore, I was so emotionally numb and exhausted, when I wasn't feeling any of the two extremes, that I felt as though I didn't have any other feeling than those two phases at all. I was practically torn between feeling angry at everyone, feeling that I was the best and could do anything, and feeling helpless and desperate, and that was it. Ever since the combo medication + therapy has brought me to a situation that's more emotionally stable, I've actually started to experience a lot of emotions that I didn't even think I could have, and I actually discovered myself to be quite sensitive and connected to my more emotional side (even if, as far as I know, from the point of view of other people I still look cold...), as I were like as a child, before the mood swings took control of my life during my teens
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
I wouldn't know how to answer this question exactly, I just know I want to live peacefully and as free as possible from responsibility and do my own thing without being forced into anything I don't want to do. If I have to find a purpose other than that, I would say I want to be able, if I can, to do something to protect the environment, the plants and the animals
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
Pride and envy the most, gluttony and greed the least
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
People who are kind, open-minded, competent and good at leading without being bossy and pushy
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I wouldn't really know, any type of people seem to be drawn to me, since I'm a pretty chill and funny gal when you first get to know me
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Close-minded people, pushy people, people who are too loud and get too close too early, people who are incompetent in their field, people who want to boss me around, people who do everything by the book and are incapable of adapting, people who complain all the time and can't ever endure and make do
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
I admire kindness, warmness and good leadership. It's not that I'm rude, normally I always try to be as polite as possible with people in my words and actions, but still they perceive me as cold and detached, if not even as angry and pushy when I'm being passionate about something. As for leadership, as much as I don't like to admit it, I think I'd make a terrible leader; generally, I just want to do my own thing, and having people depend on me for anything just makes me really anxious, and I get annoyed immediately when people start pushing to do something other than what I decided, so in the end I just prefer to avoid the responsibility altogether
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I tend to get annoyed quite often, but it's very difficult for me to get really angry at someone, and usually if I do get to the point of having an outburst, it doesn't last much and I go back to feeling normal in a few minutes. This usually happens when someone keeps complaining about something I consider endurable even after I've given them a solution to make it easier for themselves or if they try to force their views on me when I don't agree with them, I'll try to stay calm but I'll just snap at some point if they keep insisting. I only get really really angry and keep being angry with someone only if I've felt hurt by their actions and they haven't done anything to make up for it or if they hurt someone I love
b) Shame
I tend to feel ashamed after I've said something stupid or incorrect, but I don't dwell too much about it in the end, it can happen to anyone. What I'm really ashamed of at times is my looks: if, for example, I'm wearing a cute outfit and I see another girl that in my mind wears it "better" than me, I'll feel very ashamed I even thought of going out dressed like that. Also interacting with people I consider more attractive than I am makes me ashamed of my appearance, and then I feel even more ashamed because I feel stupid for caring so much about my looks
c) Fear
The things I'm afraid of are gaining weight and in general being ugly (yes it's very stupid, and I hate than I have such a strong fear for such a superfluous thing), being abandoned, being stuck in a situation I don't like and therefore not being able to live my life fully as I would like to, amounting to nothing, losing interest in everything that makes my life worth living. I try not to let these fears get my down and always attempt to fight them to the best of my ability
d) Love/passion
I think people watching me from the outside would say I don't look passionate at all, when they don't know me well. I'm actually very passionate about things like environmental protection and human rights, for example, and can even get into heated discussion about such topics. As for love, this is another feeling people can't seem to sense much from me from the outside (even my boyfriend, who btw is an ISFJ, has trouble feeling it from me sometimes), because I don't really express it through words or gestures of affection but rather through actions, by trying to support and help as much as possible the people I love
e) Conflict
I try to avoid open conflict as much as possible because I think it usually doesn't solve anything, and I kinda dread to lose my time for something like that when I just want to live in peace. I only get into conflict if I'm pushed into a corner and I feel I have no other way to get out of a situation or if someone makes me annoyed or angry to the point that I snap
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
One of course was my unstable mental health, that, as I wrote before, it caused me have a pretty much emotionally numb life from my teens up to a while ago, as well as unstable social relationships. I'm just now starting to cope with it and get back to a more stable state.
Another one is the relationship I have with food and my body image; I'm trying to not let it get to me as much as I can, but it's still difficult to deal with it some days. I really hope to get better and stop worrying about it soon, there's so much stuff to do in life and every minute I pass in front of the mirror feeling bad for myself is wasted time that I could have used for something else
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
Oh boy, my education had quite a few of abrupt turning points. First of all, in high school I chose a school that focused on humanities (I'm not sure how it works in other countries, but in Italy we can choose several types of school from HS, for ex. scientific, languages, arts, etc.) because I was interested in mythology, culture etc., but much to my chagrin, I've always been better at math and science and the arts than philosophy, history and such. Therefore, after HS, I chose a bachelor in ecology, landscape architecture and planning, because I thought it would be the perfect compromise between a creative field of study and a scientific one, and of course because I've always had an interest in nature and the environment; but, while the scientific side of it was fine, the creative one was not, because my professor didn't leave any creativity for us students while designing the projects: you had to do what they thought was right according to their own creativity and any approach that wasn't identical to their own wasn't appreciated at all. This made me very frustrated
When I got my bachelor degree, I chose to do a master's in forestry and environmental sciences, which is what I'm currently doing right now. It is a scientific field, which is what I'm good at, but at the same time it's a study and professional area that allows you to have some freedom, as you can still design and implement reforestation areas or green infrastructure. On one side, I'm a bit sad that I had to abandon landscape architecture, as being a landscape architect is also a way to leave a part of your legacy on the ground, in front of everyone more than designing any forest or green infrastructure, but I couldn't bear to pass two more years doing exams with professors that wouldn't even leave any space for my own creative approach. Other than that, I'm happy about what I'm doing right now and love this area of study, but still I know that if I were to do another course I would probably choose something else again because that's just how I am
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their looks, the way they talk, move, what gestures they make, their posture, the way they speak
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I alternate from having faith in humanity when I see people doing good actions to thinking we're doomed when I see people disrespect each other and nature. In the end, I think it all comes down to the single individual: some people are respectful of others and the environment, some aren't, and I don't think there's more "bad" people now than there used to in the past.
I think the biggest problems of humanity in general are putting immediate economic income above everything else, hypocrisy and lack of ability to just look at what's around them. But even in this case, it all comes down to the individuals in the end
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
My hobbies are watching tv shows and reading books with complicated plots, drawing, walking in nature, working out, baking. My interests are environmental issues and nature (of course), psychiatry and psychology, medicine, mythology, religions and in general cultures all around the world, cooking, make up (I hardly ever wear it but still I love doing other people's make up and watching videos about it), clothes styling
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
I usually wait for other people to invite me to hang out. Usually I hang out in groups, but it also happens that I hang out with a single or a few friends. We usually go to the park, or to street markets, or just take bubble tea and walk in the city center
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
My first thought is to say that actions are more important, but words can be too, in some cases
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
c) To lose your memories
Elaborate on why!
I choose to lose my memories, because I can always make new ones. I don't want to lose taste, I would never want to be immortal, being poor is a problem in a world where you need money for pretty much anything and a life without any passion would be just incredibly dull and boring to me
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
I don't want to be a hypocrite. I mean, I know that no one is ever 100% honest and authentic, but that's not being a hypocrite to me, as an hypocrite is someone who always tries to hide their authentic self just to gain the approval of the majority, and I think that's a very sad way to live. I also hope I'll never become a person who complains all the time about everything and a person who's excessively nostalgic, as I think that thinking too much about the past doesn't let you enjoy the present moment.
I also don't want to go back to trying to put up a though and emotionless exterior like I happened to do when I was 11-12. I think I looked very ridiculous while doing so because it was really excessive. It's ok to have emotions, it's ok to feel offended and be sensitive and after spending all my teen years as emotionally numb, I don't think I should ever be ashamed of feeling something again
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
I am "obsessed" about my body image, and I just hate it. I spend so much time thinking about it, time that I could use for something else I enjoy. Other than that, I tend to overthink a lot, in general, and I hate doing that
I wouldn't know about the second question because I'm not sure I understand it, I guess I do both? I "merge" with others when I feel some sort of connection with them, due to similar life experiences or personality or views
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
I am a very messy person, from an external perspective. I think any tidy and neat person would feel exhausted after spending a lot of time in my room. But, in my mess, I can find everything and I feel at ease, I never misplace or lose something because there's actually my own personal logic behind what's seen as complete mess from the outside. In fact, when my mother "organizes" my room to make it more tidy, it's a terrible experience for me, as I'm not able to find anything anymore
I tend to be a person who prefers to improvise rather than plan everything ahead. For example, when doing oral examinations, I never prepare what I'll say in advance
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
I don't really care about comfort, in the sense that I can feel comfortable pretty much anywhere. I just adapt to what's around me
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I am a girl of 22 and I am from Italy. I don't have any particular religious belief as I am an agnostic, even though I've always been fascinated with studying mythologies and religions of any kind, and politically I think I can be defined as green/left-wing. As for impairments, as far as I know I was diagnosed with cyclothymia (a milder form of bipolar, which I'm taking medication for, therefore at the moment it's under control) and body dysmorphia
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
ISTP and ISFP. I've considered myself to be an ISTP for several years actually, but recently I've had doubts, mainly tied to the fact that up to a while ago it was very difficult for me to deal with any feelings that weren't the constant swinging from depression to hypomania; in the end, therefore, I was so emotionally numb and exhausted, when I wasn't feeling any of the two extremes, that I felt as though I didn't have any other feeling than those two phases at all. I was practically torn between feeling angry at everyone, feeling that I was the best and could do anything, and feeling helpless and desperate, and that was it. Ever since the combo medication + therapy has brought me to a situation that's more emotionally stable, I've actually started to experience a lot of emotions that I didn't even think I could have, and I actually discovered myself to be quite sensitive and connected to my more emotional side (even if, as far as I know, from the point of view of other people I still look cold...), as I were like as a child, before the mood swings took control of my life during my teens
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
I wouldn't know how to answer this question exactly, I just know I want to live peacefully and as free as possible from responsibility and do my own thing without being forced into anything I don't want to do. If I have to find a purpose other than that, I would say I want to be able, if I can, to do something to protect the environment, the plants and the animals
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
Pride and envy the most, gluttony and greed the least
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
People who are kind, open-minded, competent and good at leading without being bossy and pushy
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I wouldn't really know, any type of people seem to be drawn to me, since I'm a pretty chill and funny gal when you first get to know me
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Close-minded people, pushy people, people who are too loud and get too close too early, people who are incompetent in their field, people who want to boss me around, people who do everything by the book and are incapable of adapting, people who complain all the time and can't ever endure and make do
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
I admire kindness, warmness and good leadership. It's not that I'm rude, normally I always try to be as polite as possible with people in my words and actions, but still they perceive me as cold and detached, if not even as angry and pushy when I'm being passionate about something. As for leadership, as much as I don't like to admit it, I think I'd make a terrible leader; generally, I just want to do my own thing, and having people depend on me for anything just makes me really anxious, and I get annoyed immediately when people start pushing to do something other than what I decided, so in the end I just prefer to avoid the responsibility altogether
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I tend to get annoyed quite often, but it's very difficult for me to get really angry at someone, and usually if I do get to the point of having an outburst, it doesn't last much and I go back to feeling normal in a few minutes. This usually happens when someone keeps complaining about something I consider endurable even after I've given them a solution to make it easier for themselves or if they try to force their views on me when I don't agree with them, I'll try to stay calm but I'll just snap at some point if they keep insisting. I only get really really angry and keep being angry with someone only if I've felt hurt by their actions and they haven't done anything to make up for it or if they hurt someone I love
b) Shame
I tend to feel ashamed after I've said something stupid or incorrect, but I don't dwell too much about it in the end, it can happen to anyone. What I'm really ashamed of at times is my looks: if, for example, I'm wearing a cute outfit and I see another girl that in my mind wears it "better" than me, I'll feel very ashamed I even thought of going out dressed like that. Also interacting with people I consider more attractive than I am makes me ashamed of my appearance, and then I feel even more ashamed because I feel stupid for caring so much about my looks
c) Fear
The things I'm afraid of are gaining weight and in general being ugly (yes it's very stupid, and I hate than I have such a strong fear for such a superfluous thing), being abandoned, being stuck in a situation I don't like and therefore not being able to live my life fully as I would like to, amounting to nothing, losing interest in everything that makes my life worth living. I try not to let these fears get my down and always attempt to fight them to the best of my ability
d) Love/passion
I think people watching me from the outside would say I don't look passionate at all, when they don't know me well. I'm actually very passionate about things like environmental protection and human rights, for example, and can even get into heated discussion about such topics. As for love, this is another feeling people can't seem to sense much from me from the outside (even my boyfriend, who btw is an ISFJ, has trouble feeling it from me sometimes), because I don't really express it through words or gestures of affection but rather through actions, by trying to support and help as much as possible the people I love
e) Conflict
I try to avoid open conflict as much as possible because I think it usually doesn't solve anything, and I kinda dread to lose my time for something like that when I just want to live in peace. I only get into conflict if I'm pushed into a corner and I feel I have no other way to get out of a situation or if someone makes me annoyed or angry to the point that I snap
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, ect)?
One of course was my unstable mental health, that, as I wrote before, it caused me have a pretty much emotionally numb life from my teens up to a while ago, as well as unstable social relationships. I'm just now starting to cope with it and get back to a more stable state.
Another one is the relationship I have with food and my body image; I'm trying to not let it get to me as much as I can, but it's still difficult to deal with it some days. I really hope to get better and stop worrying about it soon, there's so much stuff to do in life and every minute I pass in front of the mirror feeling bad for myself is wasted time that I could have used for something else
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) [College aged and above] What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
Oh boy, my education had quite a few of abrupt turning points. First of all, in high school I chose a school that focused on humanities (I'm not sure how it works in other countries, but in Italy we can choose several types of school from HS, for ex. scientific, languages, arts, etc.) because I was interested in mythology, culture etc., but much to my chagrin, I've always been better at math and science and the arts than philosophy, history and such. Therefore, after HS, I chose a bachelor in ecology, landscape architecture and planning, because I thought it would be the perfect compromise between a creative field of study and a scientific one, and of course because I've always had an interest in nature and the environment; but, while the scientific side of it was fine, the creative one was not, because my professor didn't leave any creativity for us students while designing the projects: you had to do what they thought was right according to their own creativity and any approach that wasn't identical to their own wasn't appreciated at all. This made me very frustrated
When I got my bachelor degree, I chose to do a master's in forestry and environmental sciences, which is what I'm currently doing right now. It is a scientific field, which is what I'm good at, but at the same time it's a study and professional area that allows you to have some freedom, as you can still design and implement reforestation areas or green infrastructure. On one side, I'm a bit sad that I had to abandon landscape architecture, as being a landscape architect is also a way to leave a part of your legacy on the ground, in front of everyone more than designing any forest or green infrastructure, but I couldn't bear to pass two more years doing exams with professors that wouldn't even leave any space for my own creative approach. Other than that, I'm happy about what I'm doing right now and love this area of study, but still I know that if I were to do another course I would probably choose something else again because that's just how I am
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their looks, the way they talk, move, what gestures they make, their posture, the way they speak
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I alternate from having faith in humanity when I see people doing good actions to thinking we're doomed when I see people disrespect each other and nature. In the end, I think it all comes down to the single individual: some people are respectful of others and the environment, some aren't, and I don't think there's more "bad" people now than there used to in the past.
I think the biggest problems of humanity in general are putting immediate economic income above everything else, hypocrisy and lack of ability to just look at what's around them. But even in this case, it all comes down to the individuals in the end
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
My hobbies are watching tv shows and reading books with complicated plots, drawing, walking in nature, working out, baking. My interests are environmental issues and nature (of course), psychiatry and psychology, medicine, mythology, religions and in general cultures all around the world, cooking, make up (I hardly ever wear it but still I love doing other people's make up and watching videos about it), clothes styling
13) How do you usually “hang out†with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
I usually wait for other people to invite me to hang out. Usually I hang out in groups, but it also happens that I hang out with a single or a few friends. We usually go to the park, or to street markets, or just take bubble tea and walk in the city center
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
My first thought is to say that actions are more important, but words can be too, in some cases
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose….
c) To lose your memories
Elaborate on why!
I choose to lose my memories, because I can always make new ones. I don't want to lose taste, I would never want to be immortal, being poor is a problem in a world where you need money for pretty much anything and a life without any passion would be just incredibly dull and boring to me
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
I don't want to be a hypocrite. I mean, I know that no one is ever 100% honest and authentic, but that's not being a hypocrite to me, as an hypocrite is someone who always tries to hide their authentic self just to gain the approval of the majority, and I think that's a very sad way to live. I also hope I'll never become a person who complains all the time about everything and a person who's excessively nostalgic, as I think that thinking too much about the past doesn't let you enjoy the present moment.
I also don't want to go back to trying to put up a though and emotionless exterior like I happened to do when I was 11-12. I think I looked very ridiculous while doing so because it was really excessive. It's ok to have emotions, it's ok to feel offended and be sensitive and after spending all my teen years as emotionally numb, I don't think I should ever be ashamed of feeling something again
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
I am "obsessed" about my body image, and I just hate it. I spend so much time thinking about it, time that I could use for something else I enjoy. Other than that, I tend to overthink a lot, in general, and I hate doing that
I wouldn't know about the second question because I'm not sure I understand it, I guess I do both? I "merge" with others when I feel some sort of connection with them, due to similar life experiences or personality or views
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
I am a very messy person, from an external perspective. I think any tidy and neat person would feel exhausted after spending a lot of time in my room. But, in my mess, I can find everything and I feel at ease, I never misplace or lose something because there's actually my own personal logic behind what's seen as complete mess from the outside. In fact, when my mother "organizes" my room to make it more tidy, it's a terrible experience for me, as I'm not able to find anything anymore
I tend to be a person who prefers to improvise rather than plan everything ahead. For example, when doing oral examinations, I never prepare what I'll say in advance
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
I don't really care about comfort, in the sense that I can feel comfortable pretty much anywhere. I just adapt to what's around me
The other one:
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love? Beauty to me is a mix about physical attractiveness and perception of what's beyond it. For people, it's a combo between how beautiful they are and their personality, behaviour and charisma; for objects and other living things, it's a mix between their shape, colors etc. and what they represent for me. As for love, I don't really know how to define it clearly. I can say it's the desire to be close to someone and yet still leave them free, as well as staying free yourself (I'm considering any type of love here)
2. What are your most important values? Authenticity (when for some reason I have to lie or act in a particular way, I'll feel very disappointed with myself. I'll do it anyway if I need to, but I would still feel like bad for it), acceptance of diversity, freedom to follow my own path. I just want to be left alone to do my own thing without bring judged and I want the same for others
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? I talked about my beliefs in the questionnaire above. I don't hold them simply because I've never really felt the need to adhere to a particular cult, despite receiving religious education in elementary school
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? I think there are always economic reasons behind war. I view war as a terrible thing, I'm glad I've never had to face it and I really hope I never will in my life. As for militaries, I feel a bit sorry for the people who are involved in them. I mean, I know they chose to do it themselves, at least those coming from Europe and the USA, but still I feel that not all of them know what they're going into. I think being into war makes you lose your sense of humanity. As for power, I think it is the ability to shape your life how you want to. You might also have the power to shape other people's lives, but in the end, shaping your own is the most important thing
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Usually about political views and human rights, as well as nature and the environmental issues we're facing. As for my interests, I already explained above
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? Yes I am, expecially in psychiatry, since I suffer from a condition as well. I am focused on my body to an unhealthy degree, as I think was evident from what I talked about above
7. What do you think of daily chores? Kinda boring. Don't like to do them , I often forget to, and I'll try to procrastinate as much as possible anyway
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. I tend to love stuff with a complicated plot, and/or with a dark setting. An example of movie I like is Pan's Labyrinth by Guillermo del Toro. As for books, I liked The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco, the Stand by Stephen King, the Tales of Allan Poe, and Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? I tend to cry for very random things. It can range from feeling inadequate and unworthy to just being emotional because I watched a sad movie scene. I smile when I see animals being cute, the beauty of nature, and when I feel that the people I love care about me
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I feel at one with the environment whenever I'm immersed in nature. I feel a sense of belonging when I'm with people who share similar views of the world to my own
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? People tell that I am a bit cold, that I am disorganized, obsessed with my appearance, stubborn, impatient and that I see things in black and white with no in between. About myself I dislike my excessive focus on my body, my envy, the fact that I can't always face people and things head on, my inability to express emotions as clearly as I would like to and my pride that has caused me to totally cut people out in the past
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? People say I'm very intelligent and capable, that I have a great sense of humor and that I'm the type of person you can talk about everything with. About myself, I like the fact that I can improvise, my creativity, my problem-solving ability, my determination and my ability to keep doing what I want despite what people think about it
13. In what areas of your life would you like help? I would like to stop worrying so much over my appearance and learn how to express my feelings in a way that also people are able to understand
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. I happen to feel stuck when I start overthinking about something. I start to think and think and think until the external world doesn't matter anymore and I'm just completely focused on my thoughts and sensations. I feel as if I am suspended into the void, in these cases, and I usually need something or someone to snap me out of it; I try to do this by hanging out with people, watching/reading sometimes or doing an intense workout
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I think I also answered this in the previous questionnaire. As for the second question, I get along with pretty much everyone as long as they aren't close-minded bigots, because despite everything I'm pretty tolerant to other people's flaws usually
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I'm not a very romantic person in the common sense of the word; as I said before, I prefer to show my love and support in other ways rather than through words or affectionate gestures. Sex is a fun experience, for me it's not necessary to have it with someone you love and are committed to. As for qualities in a partner, I want them to be kind, not judge me or deny the importance of what I feel and think, to be able to help me calm down and think things through when I'm being too impulsive or impatient and to be willing to listen to what I have to say and do fun activities together
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? I am actually very scared at the idea of having a child, for many reasons. Anyway, I would want them to always feel well-accepted and never feel ignored. I would let them choose what activities they want to do without forcing them into anything they're not sure about, and would like them to know that they can always talk to me for any problem. My parents weren't bad parents, but during my childhood I often felt like they didn't have time to listen to me or help me, reason why I never told them anything about what happened in school or with my friends, and I still live with the consequence of this nowdays. I'd never want my child to feel the same way
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Inward, I'd just think: "no". Outward, I'd stay calm and explain my point of view and why I don't agree, and just get more aggressive is they tried to force their views on me. I wouldn't try to force mine on them anyway, and would like them to do the same with me
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. I answered a similar question in the previous questionnaire
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I choose them based on shared interests and activities and on similar views and values. Around them, I try to be as chill as possible. I don't want them to see my more "negative" side, my sad thoughts and my melancholy. I always try to be as relaxed and humorous as possible around them. I feel bad for this because I'm not being completely myself and I'm kinda "hiding" a part of me from them, but at the same time I don't want to be seen as someone who complains all the time or make the mood of the group gloomy because I'm not feeling joyful
21. How do you behave around strangers? I try to be as polite as possible, as long as they are to me as well, and that's it
1. What is beauty? What is love? Beauty to me is a mix about physical attractiveness and perception of what's beyond it. For people, it's a combo between how beautiful they are and their personality, behaviour and charisma; for objects and other living things, it's a mix between their shape, colors etc. and what they represent for me. As for love, I don't really know how to define it clearly. I can say it's the desire to be close to someone and yet still leave them free, as well as staying free yourself (I'm considering any type of love here)
2. What are your most important values? Authenticity (when for some reason I have to lie or act in a particular way, I'll feel very disappointed with myself. I'll do it anyway if I need to, but I would still feel like bad for it), acceptance of diversity, freedom to follow my own path. I just want to be left alone to do my own thing without bring judged and I want the same for others
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? I talked about my beliefs in the questionnaire above. I don't hold them simply because I've never really felt the need to adhere to a particular cult, despite receiving religious education in elementary school
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? I think there are always economic reasons behind war. I view war as a terrible thing, I'm glad I've never had to face it and I really hope I never will in my life. As for militaries, I feel a bit sorry for the people who are involved in them. I mean, I know they chose to do it themselves, at least those coming from Europe and the USA, but still I feel that not all of them know what they're going into. I think being into war makes you lose your sense of humanity. As for power, I think it is the ability to shape your life how you want to. You might also have the power to shape other people's lives, but in the end, shaping your own is the most important thing
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Usually about political views and human rights, as well as nature and the environmental issues we're facing. As for my interests, I already explained above
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? Yes I am, expecially in psychiatry, since I suffer from a condition as well. I am focused on my body to an unhealthy degree, as I think was evident from what I talked about above
7. What do you think of daily chores? Kinda boring. Don't like to do them , I often forget to, and I'll try to procrastinate as much as possible anyway
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. I tend to love stuff with a complicated plot, and/or with a dark setting. An example of movie I like is Pan's Labyrinth by Guillermo del Toro. As for books, I liked The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco, the Stand by Stephen King, the Tales of Allan Poe, and Thus Spoke Zarathustra by Nietzsche
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? I tend to cry for very random things. It can range from feeling inadequate and unworthy to just being emotional because I watched a sad movie scene. I smile when I see animals being cute, the beauty of nature, and when I feel that the people I love care about me
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I feel at one with the environment whenever I'm immersed in nature. I feel a sense of belonging when I'm with people who share similar views of the world to my own
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? People tell that I am a bit cold, that I am disorganized, obsessed with my appearance, stubborn, impatient and that I see things in black and white with no in between. About myself I dislike my excessive focus on my body, my envy, the fact that I can't always face people and things head on, my inability to express emotions as clearly as I would like to and my pride that has caused me to totally cut people out in the past
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? People say I'm very intelligent and capable, that I have a great sense of humor and that I'm the type of person you can talk about everything with. About myself, I like the fact that I can improvise, my creativity, my problem-solving ability, my determination and my ability to keep doing what I want despite what people think about it
13. In what areas of your life would you like help? I would like to stop worrying so much over my appearance and learn how to express my feelings in a way that also people are able to understand
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. I happen to feel stuck when I start overthinking about something. I start to think and think and think until the external world doesn't matter anymore and I'm just completely focused on my thoughts and sensations. I feel as if I am suspended into the void, in these cases, and I usually need something or someone to snap me out of it; I try to do this by hanging out with people, watching/reading sometimes or doing an intense workout
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I think I also answered this in the previous questionnaire. As for the second question, I get along with pretty much everyone as long as they aren't close-minded bigots, because despite everything I'm pretty tolerant to other people's flaws usually
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I'm not a very romantic person in the common sense of the word; as I said before, I prefer to show my love and support in other ways rather than through words or affectionate gestures. Sex is a fun experience, for me it's not necessary to have it with someone you love and are committed to. As for qualities in a partner, I want them to be kind, not judge me or deny the importance of what I feel and think, to be able to help me calm down and think things through when I'm being too impulsive or impatient and to be willing to listen to what I have to say and do fun activities together
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? I am actually very scared at the idea of having a child, for many reasons. Anyway, I would want them to always feel well-accepted and never feel ignored. I would let them choose what activities they want to do without forcing them into anything they're not sure about, and would like them to know that they can always talk to me for any problem. My parents weren't bad parents, but during my childhood I often felt like they didn't have time to listen to me or help me, reason why I never told them anything about what happened in school or with my friends, and I still live with the consequence of this nowdays. I'd never want my child to feel the same way
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Inward, I'd just think: "no". Outward, I'd stay calm and explain my point of view and why I don't agree, and just get more aggressive is they tried to force their views on me. I wouldn't try to force mine on them anyway, and would like them to do the same with me
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. I answered a similar question in the previous questionnaire
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I choose them based on shared interests and activities and on similar views and values. Around them, I try to be as chill as possible. I don't want them to see my more "negative" side, my sad thoughts and my melancholy. I always try to be as relaxed and humorous as possible around them. I feel bad for this because I'm not being completely myself and I'm kinda "hiding" a part of me from them, but at the same time I don't want to be seen as someone who complains all the time or make the mood of the group gloomy because I'm not feeling joyful
21. How do you behave around strangers? I try to be as polite as possible, as long as they are to me as well, and that's it
And that's it. I had to put them under spoiler, otherwise this message would have been enormous. I usually don't talk so much, but in some questions I wrote a lot because I think it was important to make my point of view clearer
If it can help, I think my enneagram is 9w8 4w3 7w8 sx/sp (but if you have another opinion on my enneatype, you're welcome to comment on it as well, or confirm what I think if you feel it's right)
As for cognitive functions, in tests I usually score Se first, Fi and Ti second, Si, Fe, Te have the lowest scores and Ne and Ni are just there in the middle