LOL Unfortunately, anything is possible at this point (though I'd like to successfully fit my pants so I sincerely hope not).
Thus far, in all of my typing struggles, ENFJ feels the most right.
And blame @
Jaguar's trolling but insightful ass for my currently enlightened state.
You ever come upon an old thread where a poster is writing from the vantage point of a certain type but the type listed under their screen name is different? Lol I hate that. I never wanted to be one of those guys...but alas. I don't feel like too much of a tool though because I've been upfront and honest about possibly mistyping.
Having said that, if it's one thing I'm certain of, it's that I'm an enneagram 8--and I think, in large part, that's what can give me an ENTJish (assertive, confrontational, straightforward) flavor. Like an 8, I seek power and authority in order to ultimately control my environment in the way I see fit, and that's where Fe's "harmony/consensus" building might come into play. Though I have a strong independent and individualist streak like an 8, if I'm being totally honest, I think the individual should be just that to the highest degree possible,
while still operating within an overarching system where the individual doesn't compromise the whole. "Do you!" so long as that doesn't unduly hurt/negatively impact others. But I don't believe in individualism at all costs because within such a framework, grave injustices can be carried out against the most vulnerable, and healthy ENFJs/type 8s definitely believe in justice and fairness as it pertains to uplifting the underdog and protecting the weak.
Furthermore I've always intuitively known that I was quite empathic (HSP), but because I didn't react to/express these feelings in what I stereotypically (as it relates to socio-cultural gender biases) believed to be emotionally sensitive (read: soft, weepy, maudlin) ways, I didn't see myself as all that "emotional." Though, somewhat ironically, I've always had anger issues and anger, surprise surprise, is a powerful
emotion.
And if I am an ENFJ, it makes sense why when under stress of any kind, I tend to detach and become pretty cold and logical (Ti grip). And I've been under a lot of (self imposed) stress for the past few years--could be why in that state, I relate so much to the ENFJ's shadow ISTP side.
As far as I've been able to discern, all being a high Fe user means is that one can pick up on the external emotional vibes in any situation and is compelled to exert control over said atmosphere, in order to achieve a certain, usually harmonious end, but not necessarily. If people comprise
a "system," then I certainly manage systems. It's just that I don't seek harmony for the sake of harmony, but because harmonizing others attitudes with one I purposefully choose helps me reach my objectives more efficiently. As far as my dark side is concerned, I very much relate to the idea of the "charm" inducing, though ultimately jugular destroying vampire. Lol
So, for now, ENFJ works.
And in not completely derailing the thread, I think that Dr. Cox from Scrubs is another likely ENTJ.