I'm more focused on my tri fix now.
this may help too. I answered some different questions more thoroughly
1. What are some of your favorite traits about yourself?
- the only person who can hurt me is myself. I am like a saiyan. you better make sure you kill me or I will come back stronger and smarter.
- I have solid integrity and congruent beliefs and am completely immune to social conditioning. I make decisions based off of logic and my own values and if there is no place in my decision making for supplication or political correctness. this wolf is not going to let society turn him into a dog
- I have a lot of dramatic flair and originality. this doesn't always sit well with others, but that doesn't bother me at all.
- rational, poised and self controlled and emotionally calm.
- my confidence is completely internally based. I don't need status, reassurance of any kind or external influence to love myself, have confidence and treat myself like a king.
- on the inside, I am a eternally a child. I am never going to grow up and become jaded, boring and asexual like most people do.
- I have an eye for grace, beauty, elegance, purity and quality. I only except the highest quality into my life. you only live once, and I believe in filling that life with quality and elegance.
2. Admit a few things you don't like to admit about yourself
- I have a lot of trouble with discipline. it is frustrating as I am a person with big aspirations and desires, but lacking the discipline and work ethic to reach them. it's kind of like having a really nice car with the engine of an electric scooter
- I care too much about being respected. I could care less about if people like me, but I am somewhat bothered by disrespect.
- immature. I have a tendency to think the world revolves around me and have trouble accepting the more unpleasant, non-sexy aspects of life
- I can be somewhat arrogant. not in the sense of thinking I'm "above" people, but in the sense that I overestimate my abilities substantially. for example, in high school people would tell me to be more routine centric and I would think "they just need to do that because they're stupid"
- tactful. yes, this is something I dislike about myself. I've learned to utilize it to accomplish my means, but it makes me feel insincere when I being tactful. you see, I dislike the idea of it all together. why can't people just focus on the content of what you're saying as opposed to how you say it? I suppose you could say ideally I'd like to keep conversation more impersonal unless it is specifically an emotional conversation (such as giving a friend emotional support or helping your mom come to terms with your grandmother)
3.How have you grown with age?
- I'm learning to be more objective and stop just thinking "things will work out" you have to make results happen and as unpleasant as it is sometimes, there is an effort threshold to get results. they call it due diligence for a reason.
- short term pessimism. similar to the above point, being short term pessimistic and expecting things to not work out the first time (and usually the first several times) makes life much more consistent and much less like a roller coaster. I should stress that I will always maintain long term optimism, but short term pessimism has forced me to face the facts, make contingency plans and learn from my mistakes.
- "all you can do is decide what to do with the time that is given to you" (Gandalf from Lord of the Rings) this helps me focus on the present as opposed to my natural tendency to be like the kid from The Never Ending Story and spend my time daydreaming all day (yes, you can find some pretty bad ass, entertaining adventure worlds inside the mind of an NFP, but shit does not get done unless you can give it your full attention)
4. What are you afraid of?
I thought this was a decent question so I'll elaborate my previous response. basically my biggest fears revolve around choice. I want to be able to make the choices I want in life. I want to work where I want, do what I want, be who I am/want and not have to be accountable to anyone. the idea of living a lifestyle that is not of my choosing, lacks excitement and is comprised of tedious routine and discomfort. the closest IRL example of my biggest fear would be like being a slave or being thrown in a concentration camp. nothing but pain, misery and a compromised existence where one must stop living and start surviving.
5. What makes you feel horrible?
- being made to do anything that is illogical. I despise limitation of any kind unless there is a very good reason for it
- being made to do anything that I don't want to. desire is very important to me. while I can stomach short term consequences, the idea of doing something I don't want to do makes me want to turn into Peter Pan and fly off to NFP Wonderland. I am acutely aware of what I feel about things, what my desires are and how this applies to my present circumstance
- you know that feeling where you walk by a shop and see a super sexy, elegant outfit or an awesome looking video game and think "I wish I could have that, but it's too expensive"? THAT! I hate that feeling!
6. If you won the lottery, how would you spend it?
this was taken from another thread, but I'll re post my thoughts here because I believe it is a revealing question into a person's character.
- get a residency in Singapore
- set up my bank account and business LLC in the Cook Islands
- invest $1,000,000 in silver and gold bullion and store it in 3-4 vaults around the world
- invest another million in a Mongolian bank (rising currency value + ridiculously high interest rates)
- reinvest about $100,000 into internet business campaigns
...now for the fun stuff
- a 2 week cruise (duh lol)
- new clothes (also duh)
- several trips to a really high end spa
- professionally styled hair
- a really pimp looking fur coat
- a cane
- a Wii, a PS3, a DS and a bunch of games for them (including some older favorites for gamecub and PS2)
- switching immediately to all organic food
- sampling a bunch of exotic teas
- rolling up to a family reunion in a carriage, drawn by a British guy who gets off first, unravels a really long scroll and announces "Presenting, his Excellency, Sir (my name)"
7. What types of people do you respect
- people with backbone. those who are willing to be honest, direct and unapologetic about what they think and believe. people who have the courage to stand up for what they believe is right.
- people who are willing to be adaptable and change if they are wrong.
- people who are sexy (doesn't everyone? lol)
8 What types of people bother you?
- people who place expectations on others, who try to tell people what they "should" do, what they should believe and how they should feel. such a person is toxic and I prefer to cut them out of my life
- people who are sheep, follow the crowd and are supplicating in order to be accepted. if they don't respect themselves, why should I? I've never really understood why people would go through such lengths to attain these things
- people who believe that might makes right and expect you to listen to them because they have more power, authority or status. a classic example of this is an old person who gives you advice that is either a) outdated b) wrong c) doesn't apply to your situation or d) worked for them, so they believe it will work for you and then they get offended that you don't just say "of course sir" and instantly agree with them. such tendencies border on arrogance and even narcissism and do not foster effective communication