These are really interesting questions.
- Do you have a strong sense of identity (you know who you are no matter how much you try and deceive yourself) but feel you lack a definition in the real world or are unsure of where you identity would fit in the world? - Yes.
- Is the idea of being insignificant or dying as "an average Joe" or one of the masses absolutely abhorrent to you? I would never want to be famous - I would only want friends/family/coworkers to be mourning my death - but I'd like to feel as though I made a significant impact beyond those personal circles.
- Do you find yourself being aloof or ignorant to "what's hip and cool" and so judge your image solely on your own terms with your only guide being your inner identity's sense on whether you're being authentic or not to who you are? (This may be more of a 4w5 issue or a 4w3 issue.) This is hard to answer. I don't look for ways to contradict social norms just for the hell of it (for example, Lady Gaga), and I am concerned with how I'm perceived; I don't think that a moderate level of conformism (when it doesn't go against one's values/personality) is necessarily inauthentic. That being said, I'm confident enough in who I am to voice unpopular opinions and stray from "what's hip and cool" when my taste differs.
- To expand on the above question: do you have to put the effort in to be "unique" or an "individual" or does it occur naturally/appear naturally different without any conscious attempt on your part? Do you feel fake or shame of yourself if you find yourself and feel the need to consciously force yourself to seem different (especially if you feel you need to impress or attract others?) - Honestly, I don't think I've ever put effort into being "unique." it's not something I think about; I just try to be authentic.
- Is there an absence of any real sense of "connection" in your life to others however when content or in a good mood you are unconcerned with this lack of connection (you may feel lonely or fundamentally isolated at times however?) I really value my relationships with others, but no, it's rare that I feel truly connected to someone. I tend to be concerned about it - I just push it to the back of my mind easily.
- Is there a very strong sense of feeling of being both inferior to a person in some regards but also superior to that same person in other respects? Yes.
- Do you look at your self (your inner self) and "feel" the missing piece? Do you find yourself believing you are sufficient when looking at yourself from one angle but when looking at your inner self from another you find yourself insufficient? In both cases do you immediately start envying and longing to have what you believe others possess? it's more of a longing for what I could have than envy of others, because what's fitting for someone else might not be what's fitting for me. yes to everything else
- Does part of you feel comfortable and happy with you feeling depressed or having intense inner emotion (sometimes even to the point of suicidal misery) because it makes you feel alive but you have to feel like this from your own devices and on your own terms? Do you hate another person if they forced this state on you against your wishes? - This reminds me of something that the idea that "pain demands to be felt." If I ever feel comfortable being sad, it's always because the sadness was already there, just below the surface, numbed and unresolved. it can be a relief when it resurfaces, providing a way to deal with it straightforwardly. But usually, no. Depression isn't something I revel in. I opt for the numbness, or try to resolve it as best I can.
- Do you feel unique and an individual different from everyone and everything in the world and whilst you feel a degree of relief when you meet people who "understand you" you feel sad that you're not as unique as you first thought? - I don't feel different from everyone in the world, no. In my circles, yes. I feel a hell of a lot of relief when I meet people who understand me, and I'm not saddened by the common ground - jealous of their own strengths, maybe, but not of their uniqueness.
- Do you sometimes wonder whether you are fundamentally unlovable and that whilst your inner world is vast and great you feel you could not share your self with another and that you have less to offer a mate than other people? - yes
- Do you like to indulge yourself in fantasy which you know is not true (type 4) or do you like to idealise reality perhaps without realising you are doing it? (type 9) I like to think that I never idealize anything, I just strive to see everything as it is. So, more inclined towards fantasy.