Part 2:
Big 5 Results
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Sorry it's so small. The results are like this:
Extroversion 68%
Orderliness 50%
Emotional Stability 66%
Accommodation 42%
Inquisitiveness 64%
Result: SCUEI, Primary Type: Social
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My thoughts....
It's quite funny that my results corresponded with ENTP, a type that I've been throwing around a while.
I definitely used to have a very private side. I was always talkative and such, but 'getting lost in thought,' which is so characteristic of Introverted types happened to me so often that I always tested/identified as an Introvert (usually INTJ). In uncertain situations, I was very shy & most of the time I was not very social. I preferred quiet activities; even in sports I rarely attended to the social side of being on a team. It's strange, because I was either easily excitable and outgoing, or completely reserved; my face often showed nothing of what I was feeling inside. It took me a while to come out of my shell, but once I did, I suppose I took naturally to being the social 'butterfly,' as it were. I like being active, and social situations require much of my energy. I enjoy this kind of challenge, and eventually it became less of a challenge and I was able to attend to social nuance & listen better.
I'm also much more Unstructured than I was before. Longterm stress will do that to a person; once they realize closure isn't possible to achieve, they adapt. Or they feel their behavior does not directly influence how others respond, they adapt. Of course, I didn't go down without a fight. I tried and tried different ways to get a rise out of others, but success was rare and mild. So, I calmed down.
Once you lose something big (I mean in life), you are less averse to taking risks. I suppose I've challenged most parts of my personality. Maybe I'm too acquisitive or too competitive; either way, adaptation has meant my survival. Yes, I've lost myself in many ways, but again, longterm stress/trauma will TAKE things away from you; the longer you hold on to those things, the worse everything is. I did this for years, but I realized I could never get it back, at least not fully.
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Part 3:
I just feel the E/I distinction is not so clear for me. If I go by Jung's distinctions, I really feel more like an Introvert. But things in this forum (generally) seem make minute distinctions of the utmost importance. Even though of late I've focused my attention on being present in 'the real world,' the one filled with other people (and even feel energized doing so), I definitely don't feel this has been the focus of my life. To say that my thinking was primarily focused outwardly in my younger years would be ludicrous. I think I'm going to end up preferring a less function-focused view of all this (thanks for the @reckful post links, btw), as my weaker functions (for example feeling) absolutely could come up in all sorts of convoluted ways, leading me to act in uncharacteristic ways while interacting with other people.
When I was young, I was outgoing, a bit bossy, and definitely talkative, generally unafraid to express myself. I was, however, shy in unfamiliar circumstances, as I've mentioned before, and when alone, I spent much of my time reading, playing video games, or other solitary activities. It seems to be a mix of both. But I remember when I was about 13 or 14, I began to live entirely in my head. My ability & desire to 'perform' remained, but changed forms, possibly because my Feeling function suddenly appeared and required an indirect approach of expression (drama--on stage and off, the arts, and talking about feelings instead of actually showing them), being a non-dominant function. I remember distinctly viewing social interactions in this light; indirectly, as opposed to directly (I often approached it the same way I approached musical theater; as a play/as play, not as something real). This caused many problems in those early, formative relationships, but of course I have grown up and gained some control over this imbalance. I think the attention I've paid to this area has led me to answer in a distinctly-extroverted fashion. For example, I gave a middle rating on the question about being 'the life of the party,' but actually I'm comparing this to how much more comfortable I am at parties. My energy, once uninhibited, means I'm definitely not the energy-drainer at the party; I always want to keep up, though I'd doubt that others would view me as a party-leader, but rather a readily-active participant.
As far as the J/P distinction, I'm totally comfortable accepting that I'm pretty balanced (definitely more balanced than I used to be), as I don't find it problematic to admit usage of both: many strong-J types will of course utilize a P's ability to let something go when the situation demands it, albeit with some regret or frustration internally. I used to experience this discomfort often, especially in areas that were particularly important to me, and especially as life became increasingly difficult to manage (thanks to aforementioned trauma). However, I find that a strong 'follow-through' was only noticeable when I was young and life was comparatively easier to handle; it was quite clear to me that in most of my adolescence and college years, my ability to follow through gradually approached nada. I made it out of college by the skin of my teeth.
It seems also that this distinction is not quite clear in most people. @reckful linked to an INTJforum thread of many, many INTJs posting MBTI percentages, the majority of which showed weaker J/P results in relation to the other I/E, S/N, or T/F results. So, I worry very little about this
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I should clarify what I mean by 'live entirely in my head.' It's a bit inaccurate. I should say that at that age, I began to focus my cognitive efforts on the workings of my personal life, often obsessing on feelings that were distant and impossible for me to feel fully. This caused much (detached) introspection in the following years, for better or for worse (as I'm not sure it was characteristic of my personality prior to that point), as well as what I discussed above about indirect expression.
Big 5 Results
View attachment 9427
Sorry it's so small. The results are like this:
Extroversion 68%
Orderliness 50%
Emotional Stability 66%
Accommodation 42%
Inquisitiveness 64%
Result: SCUEI, Primary Type: Social
___________________
My thoughts....
It's quite funny that my results corresponded with ENTP, a type that I've been throwing around a while.
I definitely used to have a very private side. I was always talkative and such, but 'getting lost in thought,' which is so characteristic of Introverted types happened to me so often that I always tested/identified as an Introvert (usually INTJ). In uncertain situations, I was very shy & most of the time I was not very social. I preferred quiet activities; even in sports I rarely attended to the social side of being on a team. It's strange, because I was either easily excitable and outgoing, or completely reserved; my face often showed nothing of what I was feeling inside. It took me a while to come out of my shell, but once I did, I suppose I took naturally to being the social 'butterfly,' as it were. I like being active, and social situations require much of my energy. I enjoy this kind of challenge, and eventually it became less of a challenge and I was able to attend to social nuance & listen better.
I'm also much more Unstructured than I was before. Longterm stress will do that to a person; once they realize closure isn't possible to achieve, they adapt. Or they feel their behavior does not directly influence how others respond, they adapt. Of course, I didn't go down without a fight. I tried and tried different ways to get a rise out of others, but success was rare and mild. So, I calmed down.
Once you lose something big (I mean in life), you are less averse to taking risks. I suppose I've challenged most parts of my personality. Maybe I'm too acquisitive or too competitive; either way, adaptation has meant my survival. Yes, I've lost myself in many ways, but again, longterm stress/trauma will TAKE things away from you; the longer you hold on to those things, the worse everything is. I did this for years, but I realized I could never get it back, at least not fully.
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Part 3:
I just feel the E/I distinction is not so clear for me. If I go by Jung's distinctions, I really feel more like an Introvert. But things in this forum (generally) seem make minute distinctions of the utmost importance. Even though of late I've focused my attention on being present in 'the real world,' the one filled with other people (and even feel energized doing so), I definitely don't feel this has been the focus of my life. To say that my thinking was primarily focused outwardly in my younger years would be ludicrous. I think I'm going to end up preferring a less function-focused view of all this (thanks for the @reckful post links, btw), as my weaker functions (for example feeling) absolutely could come up in all sorts of convoluted ways, leading me to act in uncharacteristic ways while interacting with other people.
When I was young, I was outgoing, a bit bossy, and definitely talkative, generally unafraid to express myself. I was, however, shy in unfamiliar circumstances, as I've mentioned before, and when alone, I spent much of my time reading, playing video games, or other solitary activities. It seems to be a mix of both. But I remember when I was about 13 or 14, I began to live entirely in my head. My ability & desire to 'perform' remained, but changed forms, possibly because my Feeling function suddenly appeared and required an indirect approach of expression (drama--on stage and off, the arts, and talking about feelings instead of actually showing them), being a non-dominant function. I remember distinctly viewing social interactions in this light; indirectly, as opposed to directly (I often approached it the same way I approached musical theater; as a play/as play, not as something real). This caused many problems in those early, formative relationships, but of course I have grown up and gained some control over this imbalance. I think the attention I've paid to this area has led me to answer in a distinctly-extroverted fashion. For example, I gave a middle rating on the question about being 'the life of the party,' but actually I'm comparing this to how much more comfortable I am at parties. My energy, once uninhibited, means I'm definitely not the energy-drainer at the party; I always want to keep up, though I'd doubt that others would view me as a party-leader, but rather a readily-active participant.
As far as the J/P distinction, I'm totally comfortable accepting that I'm pretty balanced (definitely more balanced than I used to be), as I don't find it problematic to admit usage of both: many strong-J types will of course utilize a P's ability to let something go when the situation demands it, albeit with some regret or frustration internally. I used to experience this discomfort often, especially in areas that were particularly important to me, and especially as life became increasingly difficult to manage (thanks to aforementioned trauma). However, I find that a strong 'follow-through' was only noticeable when I was young and life was comparatively easier to handle; it was quite clear to me that in most of my adolescence and college years, my ability to follow through gradually approached nada. I made it out of college by the skin of my teeth.
It seems also that this distinction is not quite clear in most people. @reckful linked to an INTJforum thread of many, many INTJs posting MBTI percentages, the majority of which showed weaker J/P results in relation to the other I/E, S/N, or T/F results. So, I worry very little about this
...
I should clarify what I mean by 'live entirely in my head.' It's a bit inaccurate. I should say that at that age, I began to focus my cognitive efforts on the workings of my personal life, often obsessing on feelings that were distant and impossible for me to feel fully. This caused much (detached) introspection in the following years, for better or for worse (as I'm not sure it was characteristic of my personality prior to that point), as well as what I discussed above about indirect expression.
