What am I fighting against?

[ayoitsStepho]

I don't want to try anymore. Being sucked into the dark void seems so easy, so simple. No shit, I'm alone. I'm Stuck between not talking about it- hoping I can slowly sink into the dark, warm blanket of isolation where my heart can just continue to bleed until I can't feel it anymore and letting everything seep out of my soul in a raging wave of emotion and tears.

So many little bad things seem to add up, to outweigh anything good. I'm not good at being positive... But I'm so tired and angry with how easily I fall. I want to tear my hair out and scream towards the sky in agony. I don't want to be the last one standing alone. Grasping at a growing life seems out of reach.

I'm Misunderstood, alone, afraid, a child in a grown woman's body and I lack hope.

My friend died two days ago... People said it was suicide. No one really knows yet. She was full of life, good at getting what she desired from life and had family and friends who loved her so much. She's gone and I can't wrap my mind around it. It feels so dark.

I'm done with my disorganized writing.

 

[JAVO]

Long ago, I visited a similar place. The door to leave is there. It's just hidden by the tears and darkness.

 

[Blank]

My condolences for your loss. I also know what it's like to be in a dark place with no guidance as to what to do with life. It's easy to get pulled into negativity, but I'm not here to talk you out of it. What you're feeling is natural. Accept your feelings, let the period pass, and remember the good times you've had with this person. It will be painful, incredibly so at first, but just remember there will come a time where the good memories will outlast the bad.

You seem like a strong girl. Strength doesn't come from resistance, it comes from perseverance in the face of adversity.

 

[RandomINTP]

This sounds like an emo poem...
Could you at least state why you feel that way? You can't just be negative for the lols, right?
If you feel that bad, get a dog. A dog would love you and emotionally support you no matter what you're going through.
"Man's best friend" will always be on your side, with you untill the end, supporting you, and make you happy again.
Try it out!

 

[Forever]

I lost a good friend of mine last month, even though I don't think it was suicide, although I can never really know for sure. The only thing you can do is take a hold of the times and the memories you both created and take those to heart and either write, draw, paint, or try to actualize what he/she dreamed of if you can. Rest easy.