stress

[Chimerical]

So I'm starting to understand where most of the stress and depresion originates from in my life. It's my family and the feelling I'm being smothered.

I think I am the most introverted of all my family members. When I talk my older brother always has to prove that what I'm saying doesn't matter. If I prove him wrong he tries to drown me out by getting louder. He looks for ways to push people's button's when he's in the pressence of others and then tries to act innocent.

None of my friend's do this.

My sister tries to exclude me and me. She must be the center of attention. Then she'll try to speak for me in situations where I'm there and can speak for myself [which in turn has helped with with my friends and girls I'm into. I never accept a statement someone makes for someone else. I always ask the person in question directly so they can voice their own opinion].

My little brother is fine.

My Dad used to pressure you into staying in a situation and wasn't very understanding, but he's gotten better.


So my dad comes to town, we haven't seen him in a while. And my sister and older brother start getting worse and worse and go into over drive mode. They're very concerned about showing off to their father. Long story short, everything get's really stressful and I now notice why.

I hate having my hands tied up, decisions made for me, and constant talking.