amerellis
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- Aug 23, 2011
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- MBTI Type
- INFJ
- Enneagram
- 4/9
Those words, along with my subsequent freaking out and suicide palns, were what lead me to be hospitalized just over a year ago.
It's a very long story.
I was diagnosed as psychotic and I HAD pretty much gone off the deep end but itwas probably due to my worrying and lack of sleep at the discovery. I also believed that my "energy" had very negative impacts on people and was part of why I felt I deserved to die. I was relying mostly on my INFP functions with undeveloped Te, what can I say.
And uhm . . .anyway time passed and in order to "get over it" I just assumed that EVERYthing I had ever thought when I was "psychotic" was wrong. Totally off. Impossible. Never to be considered again.
A year passes and I decide to give MBTI, my former obsession which I had considered along with everything else I used to think about, total bullshit, another look.
I develope a method to type people by voice.
After a few days, I can't resist the urge to use it and join this site.
A few weeks pass and I decide to try typing my father by the method and I got: ESTP female, which is exactly what I thought he was before I was hospitalized.
It's just kind of strange and I really dk what to do. I'm not as freaking out about it now because I know other transgendered people and . . . also, before I felt like the only way he could be happy is if he came out but I realize now that that is not going to happen. He has chosen his life as a "male" and that should not change or be disrupted . . .right?
God, I'm so confused. It's just such a secret to hold. Idk what to do.
It's a very long story.
I was diagnosed as psychotic and I HAD pretty much gone off the deep end but itwas probably due to my worrying and lack of sleep at the discovery. I also believed that my "energy" had very negative impacts on people and was part of why I felt I deserved to die. I was relying mostly on my INFP functions with undeveloped Te, what can I say.
And uhm . . .anyway time passed and in order to "get over it" I just assumed that EVERYthing I had ever thought when I was "psychotic" was wrong. Totally off. Impossible. Never to be considered again.
A year passes and I decide to give MBTI, my former obsession which I had considered along with everything else I used to think about, total bullshit, another look.
I develope a method to type people by voice.
After a few days, I can't resist the urge to use it and join this site.
A few weeks pass and I decide to try typing my father by the method and I got: ESTP female, which is exactly what I thought he was before I was hospitalized.
It's just kind of strange and I really dk what to do. I'm not as freaking out about it now because I know other transgendered people and . . . also, before I felt like the only way he could be happy is if he came out but I realize now that that is not going to happen. He has chosen his life as a "male" and that should not change or be disrupted . . .right?
God, I'm so confused. It's just such a secret to hold. Idk what to do.
