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Alright. Let's see if I can do this. *cracks knuckles*
Before school, aged 0-4
I don't remember a whole lot during this time. I do know that I was very eager to start school and meet people. My mother has also told me that I was very cranky as a baby and I would often only calm down to my older brother or my mother. This suggests I, but the second sentence suggests E. Of course, I am probably wayy to young to put myself into any letters yet.
MBTI guess: xxxx
Pre-school/elementary school, aged 4-11
Oh I loved school. I really wanted to go to school and my mom signed me up for dance classes (what little girl hasn't taken dance classes?
) before school started. Apparently, my thought process made me think that I had to dance to go to school. 
Heh. What an interesting child I was. 
I loved to learn. Math was my favorite in class subject, writing my least favorite. Above everything else came gym, of course, then music. I was always had an incredibly untidy desk and I frequently forgot homework assignments. But in elementary school, that really didn't matter. They accepted late work, and I always got A's on my tests and reports (my parents did the reports, of course ). From what I can remember, I had different friends each year, up until fourth and fifth grade. By then, I started to have the same group of people as friends. Before that, I was friends with anyone I had fun with. I was pretty much a tomboy from third grade and earlier. All throughout pre-school and elementary school, I didn't care anything about fashion, make-up, ponies, or whatever little girls normally do. No, I didn't like that sort of thing. I disliked going shopping because I had to state my opinion on the clothes my mom had when I didn't have an opinion. Looks didn't really matter to me. I had friends based on their character, not their looks. I guess sometimes I ended up with some strange friends that way. I usually acted first, then reflected on my actions, which is more of an extraverted trait. Although, I don't know many elementary school kids who think before they act. Whether I was alone or with friends, it didn't really matter, as long as I was being entertained. In fifth grade, I started noticing a change. This new girl moved into town (well, she was one of triplets, so they all really moved into town. :/). Now most of the time, people at school would jump at the sight of the 'new kid,' so they can be the first to be friends with them. I thought it was a little strange because no one seemed to be jumping at the chance to be this girl's friend. I didn't think much of it, and instead I was happy that I was one of this girl's first friends in the new town. I would only later learn that no one jumped at this chance because of the way this person looked, not to mention she has a bit of an odd personality. But we went on being friends. I think I didn't pay a whole lot of attention to Fi in elementary school and I just used Fe in politeness. This part of my life is probably the happiest of my life.
MBTI guess: eStp
Middle school, aged 11-14
Middle school. I really dislike this part of my life. This carries some of my worst memories. This part of my life deals with realizations of how people are judged in the real world. People aren't like how I was in elementary school. They weren't only concerned with having fun and being entertained like I was. In sixth grade, things were pretty much like in fifth grade, except near the end of the year I started to be embarrassed of my friends. I was still taking the dance classes that I had started at four and the growing differences between my dance 'friends' and my school friends became apparent. I was embarrassed and paranoid that my dance 'friends' would figure out who my school friends were. I bet they already knew, but it still didn't take away the awful feelings that I had. I started to notice that I was surrounded by gorgeous people, and I was not one of them. I knew nothing of fashion, and my mom still picked my clothes for me. I got to thinking and I realized that people (or at least the people who aren't nerds or geeks) judged others on what they wear and how they look. I was embarrassed almost every day in middle school. I had terrible clothing, I did not start wearing make-up, I had ugly glasses, I had odd friends, I knew nothing of proper hair care (my hair was all over the place), etc. Of course, now I start thinking of how stupid I was for not realizing any of this earlier, and how stupid I was for having no fashion sense and looking like a retard. But hey, at least I had enough sense to know I looked like a retard. 
Most of this realization happened in seventh grade, where I developed my unhealthy Fe. Also,\ in seventh grade, I went through an awful time of self-loathing. I repeatedly chant words or phrases like, "stupid," "you're stupid," "fucking retard," etc. in my head to myself. Sometimes I felt as if I were dying on the inside. I don't think that I was depressed because I would perk up if someone starts chatting with me or when I was not in a school environment. It was simply self-loathing. I did not go to any of the school dances and I went to one eighth grade party, from which I left early to go to Bravo (an Italian restaurant) with my mom. I made very few friends and I distanced myself to many of my old ones. It was much harder to make friends in middle school than in elementary school. I also began to notice things that I hadn't really before; people being treated unfairly, people being rude to one another, etc. An interesting thing that I noticed is that I started to have less male friends and more female friends.
MBTI guess: ISFj (F is from realizations and unhealthy Fe)
High school, aged 15
Well, I've only been in high school for a year. Thank goodness school is not in session now.
The summer before high school I got rid of my fugly glasses in exchange for some contacts. I still don't wear make-up, but meh. It's just not for me. My face looks better with make-up, but my self-esteem is too low for me to try anything new in front of others. The contacts were enough for now. My unhealthy Fe is still going pretty strong, but things are slightly on the upside here. I have even less friends than before. I made like three distant friends by the end of the year. Yay? My self-loathing has gone down, but I am still extremely uncomfortable in social situations. I have a bit of a depressive attitude in school, especially when I am sleep deprived. I didn't think it was that obvious until people told me that I look depressed all the time. Most of it is just me being sleepy, but maybe I'm just really that easy to read. 
This year, while not ideal, was better than the last year and the year before that. I was actually persuaded to go to the homecoming dance. I actually had a great time. I didn't really do anything but jump up and down, but for some reason I had a great time. I still don't think I want to go next year. Oh well, no time to think about the upcoming year. It's summer! Time to get out and do things!
MBTI guess: iSxx I have no clue. So I guess I'm still ISTJ for now.
Well, I thought that by typing everything out I would give myself a better idea of what type I am. It seems that whenever I try to do that, my post ends up being on my feelings, not the facts. And I can never get down all the information that I want. It's all so clear in my head... if only I could put my thoughts into words Oh well. I'm definitely not perfect. I'm very imperfect, just like this song I love:
[YOUTUBE="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOaSjLpLfvs"]Keri Noble ~ Imperfect[/YOUTUBE]
I don't like anime, but it's the only video I could find on YouTube with the full song.
Before school, aged 0-4
I don't remember a whole lot during this time. I do know that I was very eager to start school and meet people. My mother has also told me that I was very cranky as a baby and I would often only calm down to my older brother or my mother. This suggests I, but the second sentence suggests E. Of course, I am probably wayy to young to put myself into any letters yet.
MBTI guess: xxxx
Pre-school/elementary school, aged 4-11
Oh I loved school. I really wanted to go to school and my mom signed me up for dance classes (what little girl hasn't taken dance classes?
) before school started. Apparently, my thought process made me think that I had to dance to go to school. Heh. What an interesting child I was. I loved to learn. Math was my favorite in class subject, writing my least favorite. Above everything else came gym, of course, then music. I was always had an incredibly untidy desk and I frequently forgot homework assignments. But in elementary school, that really didn't matter. They accepted late work, and I always got A's on my tests and reports (my parents did the reports, of course ). From what I can remember, I had different friends each year, up until fourth and fifth grade. By then, I started to have the same group of people as friends. Before that, I was friends with anyone I had fun with. I was pretty much a tomboy from third grade and earlier. All throughout pre-school and elementary school, I didn't care anything about fashion, make-up, ponies, or whatever little girls normally do. No, I didn't like that sort of thing. I disliked going shopping because I had to state my opinion on the clothes my mom had when I didn't have an opinion. Looks didn't really matter to me. I had friends based on their character, not their looks. I guess sometimes I ended up with some strange friends that way. I usually acted first, then reflected on my actions, which is more of an extraverted trait. Although, I don't know many elementary school kids who think before they act. Whether I was alone or with friends, it didn't really matter, as long as I was being entertained. In fifth grade, I started noticing a change. This new girl moved into town (well, she was one of triplets, so they all really moved into town. :/). Now most of the time, people at school would jump at the sight of the 'new kid,' so they can be the first to be friends with them. I thought it was a little strange because no one seemed to be jumping at the chance to be this girl's friend. I didn't think much of it, and instead I was happy that I was one of this girl's first friends in the new town. I would only later learn that no one jumped at this chance because of the way this person looked, not to mention she has a bit of an odd personality. But we went on being friends. I think I didn't pay a whole lot of attention to Fi in elementary school and I just used Fe in politeness. This part of my life is probably the happiest of my life.MBTI guess: eStp
Middle school, aged 11-14
Middle school. I really dislike this part of my life. This carries some of my worst memories.
This part of my life deals with realizations of how people are judged in the real world. People aren't like how I was in elementary school. They weren't only concerned with having fun and being entertained like I was. In sixth grade, things were pretty much like in fifth grade, except near the end of the year I started to be embarrassed of my friends. I was still taking the dance classes that I had started at four and the growing differences between my dance 'friends' and my school friends became apparent. I was embarrassed and paranoid that my dance 'friends' would figure out who my school friends were. I bet they already knew, but it still didn't take away the awful feelings that I had. I started to notice that I was surrounded by gorgeous people, and I was not one of them. I knew nothing of fashion, and my mom still picked my clothes for me. I got to thinking and I realized that people (or at least the people who aren't nerds or geeks) judged others on what they wear and how they look. I was embarrassed almost every day in middle school. I had terrible clothing, I did not start wearing make-up, I had ugly glasses, I had odd friends, I knew nothing of proper hair care (my hair was all over the place), etc. Of course, now I start thinking of how stupid I was for not realizing any of this earlier, and how stupid I was for having no fashion sense and looking like a retard. But hey, at least I had enough sense to know I looked like a retard. Most of this realization happened in seventh grade, where I developed my unhealthy Fe. Also,\ in seventh grade, I went through an awful time of self-loathing. I repeatedly chant words or phrases like, "stupid," "you're stupid," "fucking retard," etc. in my head to myself. Sometimes I felt as if I were dying on the inside. I don't think that I was depressed because I would perk up if someone starts chatting with me or when I was not in a school environment. It was simply self-loathing. I did not go to any of the school dances and I went to one eighth grade party, from which I left early to go to Bravo (an Italian restaurant) with my mom. I made very few friends and I distanced myself to many of my old ones. It was much harder to make friends in middle school than in elementary school. I also began to notice things that I hadn't really before; people being treated unfairly, people being rude to one another, etc. An interesting thing that I noticed is that I started to have less male friends and more female friends.MBTI guess: ISFj (F is from realizations and unhealthy Fe)
High school, aged 15
Well, I've only been in high school for a year. Thank goodness school is not in session now.
The summer before high school I got rid of my fugly glasses in exchange for some contacts. I still don't wear make-up, but meh. It's just not for me. My face looks better with make-up, but my self-esteem is too low for me to try anything new in front of others. The contacts were enough for now. My unhealthy Fe is still going pretty strong, but things are slightly on the upside here. I have even less friends than before. I made like three distant friends by the end of the year. Yay? My self-loathing has gone down, but I am still extremely uncomfortable in social situations. I have a bit of a depressive attitude in school, especially when I am sleep deprived. I didn't think it was that obvious until people told me that I look depressed all the time. Most of it is just me being sleepy, but maybe I'm just really that easy to read. This year, while not ideal, was better than the last year and the year before that. I was actually persuaded to go to the homecoming dance. I actually had a great time. I didn't really do anything but jump up and down, but for some reason I had a great time. I still don't think I want to go next year. Oh well, no time to think about the upcoming year. It's summer! Time to get out and do things! MBTI guess: iSxx I have no clue. So I guess I'm still ISTJ for now.
Well, I thought that by typing everything out I would give myself a better idea of what type I am. It seems that whenever I try to do that, my post ends up being on my feelings, not the facts. And I can never get down all the information that I want. It's all so clear in my head... if only I could put my thoughts into words Oh well. I'm definitely not perfect. I'm very imperfect, just like this song I love:
[YOUTUBE="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOaSjLpLfvs"]Keri Noble ~ Imperfect[/YOUTUBE]
I don't like anime, but it's the only video I could find on YouTube with the full song.
