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I wish i wasn't in love.

Ayeaye

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Jan 27, 2010
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I love two women called Natasha & Lisa, neither are available to me.I have probably blown the chance to have a relationship with a former model who is still beautiful & looks a lot like Terry Hatcher of a few years ago.The fact that i have had a huge crush on Terry Hatcher since the adventures of superman does not help with the how huge a hole would i like to blow in my heart.I think it's worth pointing out the how many crushes on TV character could be counted on one hand.
I will call her minnie that is her nickname.we have been friends for years & i find her interesting , smart & funny.lately we have been talking about meeting up & minnie expressed feelings & i said i feel the same, i then confessed up so i don't ever end up hurting her that i have two ladies in my heart or soul.Anyway i blew the relationship before it ever begun & have no idea what my feelings in the first place are for Tasha & Lisa, or if anything will ever come of them, or even if minnie turned up would my head be instantly sorted out enough to determine what i really thought of Tasha & Lisa in the first place.
I have never experienced true love with a woman so i do not even know what i am talking about.
Anyway no kisses, cuddles or sex with model who i really like for me, dam its been years since i have had sex.As i was forced into love with Tasha & Lisa is a whole different kettle of fish i am feeling pretty confused about it all.Tasha is more like loving a deceased without the actual pain of them being so.When i see her i want to hide so i don't think the threat on the could i love minnie level is that high.Its not her fault but i am not allowed to have them in my heart because she likes things clear & simple. I dont even properly know Lisa or Tasha either for that matter they are just images in my head.
Lisa is the best choice for no conflicting emotions & simplicity we are both council bred & she just fits.She is in a relationship though and i don't really know her that well just could imagine her getting stuck into Jeremy Kyle & his guests, sometimes its nice to have a simple time.Tasha is a disaster from the past i have never cried in my life like i did for her.

Honestly who need honesty.I am seriously starting to get to the point when i just want people to stay out of my heart i am not a walking human torture rack.
 
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