I shouldn't stay away so long

[bbites]

Time goes by so fast.

It's been colder here than is should be.

I've started going to church again. I should've never stopped. I always feel chaotic when I forget about God's love. I make things so big in my mind. God reminds me that it really is just one foot in front of the other. I'm trying to slow down and be patient. Maybe if I stop looking for satisfaction it'll just come.

I didn't make Dean's List last semester. I actually passed math the second time around. I'm completely baffled by Biology 1 even though I took the introductory course. I don't even need more science for the AA but Bio with lab is a pre-requiste for Psychology majors and I thought why not, just in case ... but now I'm almost positive I don't wanna major in Psychology so the class is making me tense.

I've fallen into that lazy trap. It really does seem to be true that the more a person has to do the more they get done. I have all the time in the world and so little motivation. I wonder if my mom would let me live with her forever. I don't know if I would be more angry with myself for not going on my own or with her for not booting me out.

I try to send all my apprehension to God.

 

[INTJMom]

I know how you feel about feeling lazy and not getting things done.
I do that too, and then get so down on myself.
Self-discipline is hard sometimes.
I haven't been very near to God lately either,
but He has been drawing me back for the last couple of days... thankfully.
I don't like it when I stray too far away either.

 

[bbites]

Thanks for the hug, INTJMom, it's nice to see someone relating to my babble.