I am sorry :(

[Sunless]

Bambino d'oro:

All this time, all I truly wanted was talent, love and solitude. And I thought I found some sort of magic inside a bottle inside you.

But truth is, the more I rubn, the more I get sucked in, the more I peek through the window the more I get lost. Seems like there is not a definitive line between what is outside and what lies within, and I think about this, and I think about you, and I think about last night, and I end up feeling like a walking window frame, no arms, no legs, clear and entirely see through.

I know you will probably never read this. But still I want to say, ever so gently, that the only part I meant was the one about you being vain.* I wish I could take back the rest.

I guess I care about you more than I should, more than I allow myself to know even when I knew from the start to walk on eggshells beside you.

What will happen is we will vanish inside the tatters of our fog, no hope no watch and we will lay in it forever, captured in time, playing hide and seek with each other, not being straight, not letting the other know, careful not to let the stitches show.**

Today i'm talentless, tomorrow i'll be loveless, next year I will be alone.


x


* Scratch that, I also meant the part about you scaring me like a bag of bricks. -ed
** Scratch that too.

 

[INTJMom]