How did I get here?

[WobblyStilettos]

Time has gone so fast, now all of a sudden I have 5 days left at school, an exam tomorrow and another on tuesday, coursework to finish, and everything's changing. Don't get me wrong, I would not spend any more time in that shithole for anything, but it kinda feels like my security blanket is being taken away, and like this could be the last time I'll ever really know what I'm doing from one day from the next. It also feels like I've reached the goal I've had since I started school... so now what?

I had a horrible nightmare last night everything in my life was going really well but then these bad guys lined everyone up to go in a killing machine and no one was making any effort to get away, and I couldn't convince them that they needed to get out of the line. For some reason I didn't get out of the line either, and then it was my turn to go into the machine. Everyone else had gone in calmly and smiling, but I was struggling and screaming. I was forced into the machine and I was clawing at the walls trying to get out, and then I suddenly fell and I realised I had fallen out of the back of the machine. I found out that, although most people had been killed, there was about half a dozen of us who had escaped from the machine. We were then walking through this big dark forest/garden (I dream loads about big dark forest/gardens) and we found the bad guy's headquarters. A girl in the group offered to go and have a look around (I'm not sure what we were trying to acheive, but we needed to get in there and I think either steal something or defeat the bad guys to bring people back to life or maybe for revenge) I wished her luck and she went in. After a minute or so she ran out again and crying and we asked what it was in there that had made her so upset and she said "It's just death- death everywhere". We all then decided to go in and we were going through these big pinky marble corridors (again, pretty standard for my dreams) but we couldn't get very far because there were guards in brightly coloured armour and giant camels patrolling the corridors.

Sorry, I'll probably end up posting lots of dreams here xD

 

[TheLastMohican]

You should write a novel based on that dream:
The Pinky Marble

It would be a hit.

As for your goal: make a new goal. There will always be new challenges ahead; you just haven't thought about them enough yet. Do you know what field you are entering?

 

[WobblyStilettos]

Ah yes, I can see it now...
"Surely there must be another way!" she cried. He looked at her sternly and said "No, there is no other way. This is your destiny. You must now go forth into the pinky marble and face the giant camels."

I do have goals, I really want to be a psychologist (even though I'm still not sure how to spell it) but I can't see how to acheive them anymore. Getting to this point was easy, I knew what I had to do each day like I was just water swirling round towards an inevitable plughole (but a good plughole ) but now I don't know what direction to go in, so my amibitions just seem like fairytales.

 

[TheLastMohican]

Ah yes, I can see it now...
"Surely there must be another way!" she cried. He looked at her sternly and said "No, there is no other way. This is your destiny. You must now go forth into the pinky marble and face the giant camels."

The profundity...

I do have goals, I really want to be a psychologist

Good career.

(even though I'm still not sure how to spell it)

And you even spelled it correctly!

but I can't see how to acheive them anymore.

One step at a time.

Getting to this point was easy, I knew what I had to do each day like I was just water swirling round towards an inevitable plughole (but a good plughole ) but now I don't know what direction to go in, so my amibitions just seem like fairytales.

You have already been accepted at your top-choice school. So just sign up for the appropriate classes, get your degree...and go into psychology. There is nothing unrealistic about that ambition.

 

[WobblyStilettos]

-spelling highfive-
Thanks do you realise how good you are at lifting bad moods?
And, as promised xD

 

[TheLastMohican]

-spelling highfive-

*Returns high-five*

(BTW, have you considered psychiatry, or only psychology?)

Thanks do you realise how good you are at lifting bad moods?

I guess not; I haven't heard that before. That is my goal here, though, so I appreciate the compliment!

And, as promised xD

I ought to keep a tally of these. Please pass the chalk.