girls

[Chimerical]

I'm happy for the friends I have. But I'm tired of just friends, I want someone to be more than a friend. I appreciate time I have with Kelsey, Leisa, and so on, but I wanted to meet a girl that I like. Someone I can be more than friends with.

So I did. I met a few of them. I met Hannah, but I like her too much so I try to stay away. And then there was Elle. I don't like Elle as much, so I wont go insane while I'm around her, but I really really liked Hannah so I seriously don't think straight when I'm around her. Both of them wanted to be my friend.

I can't do that. It'll stress me out. I can be friends with Kelsey, Leisa, and all. I don't feel anything more than friendship towards them, and they feel the same to me. It works out. But Elle and Hannah, it's not going to work. It's going to stress me out whenever I'm around.

I feel like dissappearing whenever I'm around Hannah now. I want to talk to her, but I can't. I want to have fun, but I can't. I want to be there for her but I shut down. I need to get away. I feel nervous and stressed out. It's worse when she talks about guys she's been with or guys she likes.

It's not as bad with Elle, but it hurts whenever she calls me friend.