dreams

[greenfairy]

So I dreamed about pervy old guys molesting me again. This is a recurring theme. I hope I can find the source of this in my psyche and heal/eliminate it.

 

[JAVO]

 

[greenfairy]

Why do I keep waking up from dreams that make me feel icky, and then feeling icky all the next day? It's like I'm living a double life and only one of them is safe and pleasant. I dreamed the guy I'm seeing and i came somewhere together and then we separated, I couldn't find him for the longest time, and then when I did he had hooked up with this other girl and it had been my imagination that he was with me this whole time and I was just crazy because I'd lost my memory for half the previous day. Also I had bitched out some other girl and had no memory of it, and I apologized profusely. I just assumed I was crazy since I couldn't remember, but I also kind of was afraid people were fooling me.

 

[greenfairy]

Why do I keep waking up from dreams that make me feel icky, and then feeling icky all the next day? It's like I'm living a double life and only one of them is safe and pleasant. I dreamed the guy I'm seeing and i came somewhere together and then we separated, I couldn't find him for the longest time, and then when I did he had hooked up with this other girl and it had been my imagination that he was with me this whole time and I was just crazy because I'd lost my memory for half the previous day. Also I had bitched out some other girl and had no memory of it, and I apologized profusely. I just assumed I was crazy since I couldn't remember, but I also kind of was afraid people were fooling me.

Looking back over this, the dream makes a lot of sense given the situation. I think my intuition was telling me something important.