Chimerical
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- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
- Messages
- 898
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
I am different. I've known this since I was little, that I'm significantly different from everyone else. I'm weird. I'm odd. I'm not normal. I hate this.
I tried at some point to fit it, this lasted maybe a week and then I didn't want to put up the effort anymore because I was worn out not being myself, trying to be something I'm not. I wasn't worth it.
But when I live as myself, no one likes me. I'm treated baddly nearly everywhere I go. I'm always questioned when I figure something out. People try to start physical fights with me. I'll tell a joke and someone thinks I'm making fun of them. I'll explain something and it seems simple to me, but it's not to everyone else and they tell me I'm being arogant and rude and that I think I'm smarter than them.
I make sure I at least dress within limitations so people aren't bothering me, but it doesn't matter. I really am starting to hate this world and all the people in it. I never start anything with anyone. I only fight in self defense. But people spread rumors about me, people try to beat me up and it's been going on since I was born.
I don't want to be different. I want people to understand that I'm not out to harm anyone and leave me alone.
I tried at some point to fit it, this lasted maybe a week and then I didn't want to put up the effort anymore because I was worn out not being myself, trying to be something I'm not. I wasn't worth it.
But when I live as myself, no one likes me. I'm treated baddly nearly everywhere I go. I'm always questioned when I figure something out. People try to start physical fights with me. I'll tell a joke and someone thinks I'm making fun of them. I'll explain something and it seems simple to me, but it's not to everyone else and they tell me I'm being arogant and rude and that I think I'm smarter than them.
I make sure I at least dress within limitations so people aren't bothering me, but it doesn't matter. I really am starting to hate this world and all the people in it. I never start anything with anyone. I only fight in self defense. But people spread rumors about me, people try to beat me up and it's been going on since I was born.
I don't want to be different. I want people to understand that I'm not out to harm anyone and leave me alone.