ZiL
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- Joined
- Nov 27, 2007
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- ENTP
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Wow. I've gotten a lot better in the last 2 or 3 years, but when anxiety attacks....
These are the 4 probable reasons for the heightened anxiety I've been experiencing over the past few days:
1. Too much caffeine and too little food.
Someone gave me a body, but I'm too big of an absent-minded professor to take care of it
. I need at least 2 large cups of coffee per morning to function, but the downside is that if something is worrying me, the coffee will kick the nerves into overdrive. Add it to not eating regularly, and I'm just asking for trouble.
2. End o' Semester Schoolwork
Oh professors, professors. Thank you for not giving me many final exams. I love you for it. But I do not love all of the crap you made me do the week before exam week. In the first three days of last week I had: an oral project (of which I was the primary writer and editor because apparently I'm the only one who learned any German in German 1-3), a 10-page annotated bibliography, and a 8-page research essay due, along with a physical anthropology lab test. This week I had a 10-page paper due Monday, and I still have a couple of exams. Bleh.
3. Sudden Job Opportunity
Starting next Tuesday, I have a job. I have mixed feelings about it, though I know I should be psyched. It's only 2-3 hours per day doing secretarial work in the afternoon for good pay. But to do it, I have to drop my German film class. And I'm afraid to have bosses again after the first time. I'm sure this will be better than that though - restaurants are probably some of the worst. It just came up so fast. I hate making fast decisions.
4. Old "love interests" who flirt too much for having a girlfriend. They remind me of the general futility of my love life
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It's just been the whammy of ultra-stressors: making quick decisions (the job), and having my competence questioned left and right (schoolwork). I'm tired and I can't wait for the Christmas holidays.
Things I want to do: Host a Christmas party, go to Goodwill and buy some stuff I can repaint and redesign to give people, practice Deutsch und Spanish, read a couple of books, have a jam session with somebody (even though I can barely play guitar), film some skits I've got in my head, go to Latin night and actually dance....
I'll probably only accomplish one or two of those things.
Restless and anxious, the worst combination. And nobody who I feel I can really discuss any of it with.
You know what sucks about being relatively non-emotional in everyday life? When you do want to tell your problems to someone, they don't seem to know how to react. Or they don't seem to be able to relate at all.
These are the 4 probable reasons for the heightened anxiety I've been experiencing over the past few days:
1. Too much caffeine and too little food.
Someone gave me a body, but I'm too big of an absent-minded professor to take care of it
. I need at least 2 large cups of coffee per morning to function, but the downside is that if something is worrying me, the coffee will kick the nerves into overdrive. Add it to not eating regularly, and I'm just asking for trouble.2. End o' Semester Schoolwork
Oh professors, professors. Thank you for not giving me many final exams. I love you for it. But I do not love all of the crap you made me do the week before exam week. In the first three days of last week I had: an oral project (of which I was the primary writer and editor because apparently I'm the only one who learned any German in German 1-3), a 10-page annotated bibliography, and a 8-page research essay due, along with a physical anthropology lab test. This week I had a 10-page paper due Monday, and I still have a couple of exams. Bleh.
3. Sudden Job Opportunity
Starting next Tuesday, I have a job. I have mixed feelings about it, though I know I should be psyched. It's only 2-3 hours per day doing secretarial work in the afternoon for good pay. But to do it, I have to drop my German film class. And I'm afraid to have bosses again after the first time. I'm sure this will be better than that though - restaurants are probably some of the worst. It just came up so fast. I hate making fast decisions.
4. Old "love interests" who flirt too much for having a girlfriend. They remind me of the general futility of my love life
.It's just been the whammy of ultra-stressors: making quick decisions (the job), and having my competence questioned left and right (schoolwork). I'm tired and I can't wait for the Christmas holidays.
Things I want to do: Host a Christmas party, go to Goodwill and buy some stuff I can repaint and redesign to give people, practice Deutsch und Spanish, read a couple of books, have a jam session with somebody (even though I can barely play guitar), film some skits I've got in my head, go to Latin night and actually dance....
I'll probably only accomplish one or two of those things.
Restless and anxious, the worst combination. And nobody who I feel I can really discuss any of it with.
You know what sucks about being relatively non-emotional in everyday life? When you do want to tell your problems to someone, they don't seem to know how to react. Or they don't seem to be able to relate at all.
