an example of my random thought process

[greenfairy]

I was standing in front of the sliding glass door looking out onto the balcony and the wet world. It looked like it was raining, but there weren't that many visible rain drops on the green table. So I opened the door. It was drizzling. I looked again at the table with another table top leaning against it, noticing that it was leaning at such an angle that it was dry underneath. It wondered if I was small enough, if it would work well enough to hide under and not get wet. I wondered the same about the table, which was relatively dry underneath. I thought it would be ok until it started raining really hard. But until then it would just be cold. I thought about various things one could hide in outside in the rain to stay dry enough; I thought about one of those big concrete tubes you sometimes see, and it reminded me of Slumdog Millionaire when the kids were sleeping in the big metal tube in the rain. I wondered what it was like for them, and whether it was cold. It's not cold in India, so I figured it probably wasn't. Those kids were cute; I like the idea of little children becoming friends and taking care of each other. Then I thought of how things turned out, where the other brother sort of "went bad," "went to the dark side" so to speak. I don't like black and white value judgments like that, but it was an accurate description. But he still was sort of close to the other two, even though he had his own ruthless agenda. And he did the right thing in the end. So then "going to the dark side" made me think of Star Wars and RW's fondness for it. It seems like an Fi thing, but I don't think he uses Fi. I'm not a fan of Star Wars, and this contrast between light and dark associated with good and bad is the main reason why. I just don't think light and dark are good and bad, at all, and thinking of them that way is problematic. I also don't think war is glorious. The closest I come is feeling a sense of inspiration and tribal unity when people fight for freedom, like William Wallace in Braveheart- and I felt some joy when I learned that the Germanic tribes destroyed the Roman Empire.

So I was thinking about this as I sat on my bed, and looked at the computer, and remembered I was going to work on a paper. But my thoughts were somewhere else altogether, and I wanted to just sit and not do anything for a minute to snap out of it and get my mind back on track. I thought, normal productive people don't do this- they don't take a long time to do things because they're lost in thought and have to snap back to reality. Te people don't. So why do I? I decided to go back and remember everything, and document it. I thought it would be a good example of the random process of my daily thoughts, and I should write it all down on here. So now maybe I can get back to my paper, after getting my mind back to reality and putting away my thoughts (which really aren't that important).

 

[Dudesowin]

Black and white are colors if you mean to infer that binary knowledge doesn't work then merely look at the amazing artificial intelligence you are posting with in front of you? The mbti is based upon only yes and no. The problem is you are looking at actors and figurative works. black and white a metaphor for classic cinema you compare that feeling to the feeling of the advancement of color movies to an alien sensation of morality? Good and bad are not past and future unless you have failed. Reminisce is past and determination is future.

If you are having writers block lay down and think without your imagination put that subconscious to use. You are trapped within a bubble of suspension of disbelief trying to delineate yourself to understand others remove those conscious axioms and all will be solved.

 

[Dudesowin]

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[greenfairy]

I don't understand what you are talking about. And it would help to not write in run on sentences.

 

[Dudesowin]

Does it really help to not write in run on sentences? Maybe I want more than one meaning in my words. Maybe I want to show the loose ends and mistakes so you can find places to build upon and create your own purpose. Maybe the worlds a big place and no finite mind can tediously draw out everything. Ever thought about that? Dual purpose? Or are you usually this emo? If you can not understand my qualia then except the burden of your own ignorance and about face. I do not need or require censorship.

You are embarrassed by my post yet I see no other stepped forward to make the first post. I am a very grateful audience sorry about the second post it was a repost accident.

 

[Dudesowin]

Maybe I should take a scalpel to my words and draw a big diagram. Some words are better spoken than written though.

 

[greenfairy]

I think you're the one being emo. No, I just don't understand abstraction most of the time. And for me it would help a lot. I understand complicated concepts but not when they have the appearance of poetry.

 

[Dudesowin]

I think you are the one being an invisible purple elephant. Invisible because you give no examples to what you say. Purple because you don't think in black and white. And an elephant because you never forget to be defensive when someone posts. This is me making a joke.

If you don't understand abstraction most of the time then why are you typed as INTP? Clearly you are INFP. I wish I didn't have to find such out by trial and error.

 

[greenfairy]

Why do you think INFP's are worse with abstraction? Whatever. I think I'm not INFP, and no one is going to persuade me otherwise. I mean I understand abstract concepts but not abstract language. Does that translate to Fi vs. Ti? Abstraction is usually listed as an N thing.