Amy, Jessie.

[Chimerical]

I'm talking a girl named Jessie I met in detroit. She's cool and kinda cute and all that, but I really really love Amy. I hate that. I don't want to love anyone. I don't even want to like Jessie, but it's convenient since she likes me so much.

I've been doing the emotionally convenience recently. If I like someone and they're not into me I don't talk to them. I don't wanna be depressed. If they're into me and I like them then I keep talking to them.

Jessie I kinda like.
Amy I fuckin' love.

So I go down to ohio to see Zach. And ran into Amy. She was giving off all the signs a girls gives off when they like you while I was down there. The ones I know.

So I went to kiss her and we ended up kissing and cuddling for a bit. But later when I got home and talked to her it didn't seem like she was that into me anymore.

I told Jessie that I'd made out with a girl I really liked while I was in ohio and she was like "yeah, that's cool. Not like we're dating or anything." and went back to talking to me like she's really into me.

So...
I want to go for amy and I guess I can without hurting my chances with Jessie. But I'm still thinking of it like, I really just want amy, but don't think it'll work out and if I go for her I wont be with anyone cause Jessie'll just find someone else.

Then I'll be alone because I do what I always do: Go for what I really want and fuck it up.