Chimerical
Permabanned
- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
- Messages
- 898
- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
"It's not even about finding someone these days. It's about figuring myself out. I could say that I've heard that I'll find someone a million times from a million different people who were all unavailable and/or uninterested in me to begin with. Hearing it again means nothing to me.
Personally I'm really tired of people being selfish and petty and accusing me of the same. Thus I haven't really bothered going out too much or talking to people really. Most people want you to be on their level, if they feel as if you're not they look and search for a sign that you are just as low as they are. This whole process is very irrelevant and meaningless. I get the point and I understand it, but I don't look at people as if they're less or greater than me. I speak to everyone as if they're equally as capable as I am. I act as if everyone's on the same level, but some people don't want equality because it means they can't be on top. Thus I'm very frustrated with the petty shit people are doing to me these days so I've been trying to find ways to relax and enjoy life while figuring something out.
I want to know how to let people know that all the things that don't matter don't, or that I don't think I'm better or less than anyone. But when I speak and act people seem to hear japanese, or some other language.
Not to mention I get really tired and feel worn out when I deal with too much bullshit. And the more I understand psychology and human behavior the more bullshit I tend to see. So I'm also trying to find ways to be around people without this strong urge to get away.
There's a lot more. But I'm not in the mood to keep going, and I haven't quite organized what I just said."
I need to reword what's said so I can rework myself.
Personally I'm really tired of people being selfish and petty and accusing me of the same. Thus I haven't really bothered going out too much or talking to people really. Most people want you to be on their level, if they feel as if you're not they look and search for a sign that you are just as low as they are. This whole process is very irrelevant and meaningless. I get the point and I understand it, but I don't look at people as if they're less or greater than me. I speak to everyone as if they're equally as capable as I am. I act as if everyone's on the same level, but some people don't want equality because it means they can't be on top. Thus I'm very frustrated with the petty shit people are doing to me these days so I've been trying to find ways to relax and enjoy life while figuring something out.
I want to know how to let people know that all the things that don't matter don't, or that I don't think I'm better or less than anyone. But when I speak and act people seem to hear japanese, or some other language.
Not to mention I get really tired and feel worn out when I deal with too much bullshit. And the more I understand psychology and human behavior the more bullshit I tend to see. So I'm also trying to find ways to be around people without this strong urge to get away.
There's a lot more. But I'm not in the mood to keep going, and I haven't quite organized what I just said."
I need to reword what's said so I can rework myself.
