Argus
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- Jun 11, 2008
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- ENTP
Alright, here we go.
I am leaving home/getting kicked out upon request (weird, I know) very very soon. Maybe as soon as the end of the month. I'm stagnant, stuck, stale, idle, immobile, inactive, inert, lifeless, static, stationary, still, sick of it and so are my parents.
My medication is working and I feel more competent at handling stress but my inertia is a character problem that cannot be fixed by a pill.
I have no job and no money. I'm not opposed to those things but I can't get a job here. I need a job in/near the city where I can live, but have no where to go. I suppose I could be homeless. The weather isn't that bad farther south and there are free ride shares running nearly everyday running between here and everywhere, so transportation isn't a problem. I've messaged several people on couchsurfing.org to ask if they might have a last minute couch available if worse comes to worse. The results were impressive.
I'm not quite sure why I haven't seriously told anyone I consider a close friend about this. Moving out of home makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone I know. I'm terrified and I don't want confirm it. But I want it to happen. I don't want to disappear and start a new life - I want to progress in the one I currently have, I just don't know how to do it.
My good friend Rob (XSFj) once told me this: "I'll be honest and direct with you... you're not the loveable, healthy, sexy hot guy that everyone fawned over (guys and girls) at Piney Point. You were more focused there. You were on an agenda and rolled with the flow. You were inpartial, you migrated to everyone and a fare share of eyes were on you. Everyone wanted to be with or near you. Look at all the friends you made? I watched people watch you. I remember talking to Doug who would tell me conversations that other people were having about you. I don't know if it would be the "most popular" kid in school or the Piney Point mascot, but you had it going on.
Then, things got bad and you missed Seattle and left to wait for your MMD, then regreted leaving. Here, your going in a 1,000 different directions. You need to stage for a year, fly under the radar, make lists, take everything step by step. You have a list and an agenda of things you want to do and you want to do them all now and at once."
Anyway, there's my life update.
I am leaving home/getting kicked out upon request (weird, I know) very very soon. Maybe as soon as the end of the month. I'm stagnant, stuck, stale, idle, immobile, inactive, inert, lifeless, static, stationary, still, sick of it and so are my parents.
My medication is working and I feel more competent at handling stress but my inertia is a character problem that cannot be fixed by a pill.
I have no job and no money. I'm not opposed to those things but I can't get a job here. I need a job in/near the city where I can live, but have no where to go. I suppose I could be homeless. The weather isn't that bad farther south and there are free ride shares running nearly everyday running between here and everywhere, so transportation isn't a problem. I've messaged several people on couchsurfing.org to ask if they might have a last minute couch available if worse comes to worse. The results were impressive.
I'm not quite sure why I haven't seriously told anyone I consider a close friend about this. Moving out of home makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone I know. I'm terrified and I don't want confirm it. But I want it to happen. I don't want to disappear and start a new life - I want to progress in the one I currently have, I just don't know how to do it.
My good friend Rob (XSFj) once told me this: "I'll be honest and direct with you... you're not the loveable, healthy, sexy hot guy that everyone fawned over (guys and girls) at Piney Point. You were more focused there. You were on an agenda and rolled with the flow. You were inpartial, you migrated to everyone and a fare share of eyes were on you. Everyone wanted to be with or near you. Look at all the friends you made? I watched people watch you. I remember talking to Doug who would tell me conversations that other people were having about you. I don't know if it would be the "most popular" kid in school or the Piney Point mascot, but you had it going on.
Then, things got bad and you missed Seattle and left to wait for your MMD, then regreted leaving. Here, your going in a 1,000 different directions. You need to stage for a year, fly under the radar, make lists, take everything step by step. You have a list and an agenda of things you want to do and you want to do them all now and at once."
Anyway, there's my life update.
