I'm living with my parents at the moment cause I can't afford to move out but if I lived on my own I don't know if I"ll ever talk to my family. I never got along with any of my family and none of them really cared about me.
I mean who cares if they share the same blood when they treated you like shit.
The problem could be me since I don't believe in real friendship anymore.
my guess is that you'll probably feel differently when your afar. not to devalue how shitty their treatment of you makes you feel, their treatment of you is probably an expression of what they are feeling, so its one of those cycles that might go on because, hey, hate to break it to you but as an adult you are currently your parent's roommate and they are way too old for that shit (and haven't had kitchen counter sex at noon for how many decades?). t
he point is - they are people. but the fact is that if they didn't kick you out so far (no matter how much they expressed wanting too), then they have done a good job of accepting themselves as your safety net, and will be their in your future times of need, and don't for a moment think your better then that - its a big world with plenty of jobs to loose, cohabitation to go wrong, divorces to bite your ass, bankruptcies, and probably a few of the less expected like war/famine/the-singularity/whatever... a lot of shit can happen, and you'll be happy to have someone you can trust, no matter how dickish they are about it, because no matter how bad you might think your mother is, life can be a much bigger bitch.
you'll have your own space, your parents will be far away and not so much in your face, you'r anger towards them will come into proportions, and their expressions will gradually be more in term with missing you and less in terms of get the hell out of here, and after awhile you might even miss them too, as hard as it might be to believe.
so work your way out to your own life, sit tight and don't burn your bridges.