ThaumaturgicTheorist
New member
- Joined
- Apr 19, 2016
- Messages
- 246
- MBTI Type
- ISFP
- Enneagram
- 9?
- Instinctual Variant
- sp
I know I shitpost a lot of junk on this forum, and that will probably be my undoing; plus it just makes this post look really bad. But, if I'm going to be self-obsessed, might as well be pseudo-academically self-obsessed.
I went clicking around Personality Cafe for the first time in months lately, including visiting their Enneagram subforum and E9 forum. I remember I used to like it there - a place full of friendly people sharing stories of laziness, conflict-avoidance, and occasional emptiness. Sometimes though, stuff is a bit too extreme for me.
The thread in question was one about an indifference toward dying, which nearly everyone related to and claimed they weren't depressed. It's not the first time I've wondered if I'm not actually indifferent enough to be a core Nine. There are jokes about Nines giving no fucks, more serious discussions of them being unable to care about even important things. But I, if anything, care too much. The kind of "what's the point" feeling attributed to my type only kicks in when I really am depressed, or linked to something else - ephemerality or pure nihilism rarely ever play a role in that kind of thinking; fear of failure is another story.
I mistyped at Six for a while, and I've wondered if that was just disintegration. I've speculated about being an image type of some sort due to my kinds of internal thoughts, fantasies, and painful things the Enneagram made me realize about myself. But, seeing examples of the level of disengagement and detachment other core Nines supposedly have - actually really disturbs me. It scares me to think of being that way, it's that unrelatable - I've fought mentally against ever getting to that level, against that kind of mentality in general. Maybe I looked too much at symptoms unrelated to type when calling myself a Nine.
Not to mention, I seldom relate to type-specific advice for Nines. I inhabit myself, sometimes too much. I know I have desires and needs - I'm not fully aware of what they are, and I tend to be ashamed of them, but I know they're there. What I need most is a spine.
So yeah, I'm reviving a self-typing discussion . Anyone know of some relevant type-differentiating questions?
I went clicking around Personality Cafe for the first time in months lately, including visiting their Enneagram subforum and E9 forum. I remember I used to like it there - a place full of friendly people sharing stories of laziness, conflict-avoidance, and occasional emptiness. Sometimes though, stuff is a bit too extreme for me.
The thread in question was one about an indifference toward dying, which nearly everyone related to and claimed they weren't depressed. It's not the first time I've wondered if I'm not actually indifferent enough to be a core Nine. There are jokes about Nines giving no fucks, more serious discussions of them being unable to care about even important things. But I, if anything, care too much. The kind of "what's the point" feeling attributed to my type only kicks in when I really am depressed, or linked to something else - ephemerality or pure nihilism rarely ever play a role in that kind of thinking; fear of failure is another story.
I mistyped at Six for a while, and I've wondered if that was just disintegration. I've speculated about being an image type of some sort due to my kinds of internal thoughts, fantasies, and painful things the Enneagram made me realize about myself. But, seeing examples of the level of disengagement and detachment other core Nines supposedly have - actually really disturbs me. It scares me to think of being that way, it's that unrelatable - I've fought mentally against ever getting to that level, against that kind of mentality in general. Maybe I looked too much at symptoms unrelated to type when calling myself a Nine.
Not to mention, I seldom relate to type-specific advice for Nines. I inhabit myself, sometimes too much. I know I have desires and needs - I'm not fully aware of what they are, and I tend to be ashamed of them, but I know they're there. What I need most is a spine.
So yeah, I'm reviving a self-typing discussion . Anyone know of some relevant type-differentiating questions?