How often your fears and insecurities get to you?
slip into the occasional funk, not as resistant to negativity or stress as many of the well-adjusted intj and Ne dom types i know. i envy them, at times, for this reason. they seem to know what to do.
How often you are afraid that no one will like you (for no reason) ?
when i am un-centered, this can be a serious obstacle. project too much, allow my desired ideals and impressions to be too easily triggered, not move on quickly enough, forgive and forget, the way something looks externally can upset me and i'll rely on that too much, rather than on developing a complete picture and fully imagining the interior/inside of the various perspectives/people around me. a little Ti is my saving grace, without it i'd either be spineless or completely lost or both. bc my Fe is far better, but left alone on its own i'd get seriously pushed around or i'd just respond really judgy, negatively, and withdraw all the time. total rejection.
Is it because you need to be loved to be "complete" ? (more then others)
i do need this to a somewhat ridiculous degree. or i want this constantly. but i want it to stabilize my own identity, to prevent me from ever COMPLETELY imploding, from feeling like i have NO CONNECTION with the world whatsoever, that somehow my tie has been severed and either i or everyone else will have completely disappeared. my biggest lingering fear is this kafka dream where everyone else is cut off from me, severed, alien, uncommunicative. where i become invisible, or non-existent, or powerless + rudderless.
Do you have problems with nightmares?
i would say no, but recently i have had more unpleasant awakenings in the middle of a story i would not view as positive, light, fun, warm, etc. my projections and desires and fears show signs of stress.
Are you ever afraid that you will lose your ability to feel?
always. to be so taken and in love with the purity of youth, of believing, of needing so desperately, of hoping, etc. avoiding jadedness and callousness has been a top priority for me for all of my adult life. but my expanded perspective on aging is calling some of this into question, i am feeling elements dissipate- the reactivity is more even tempered. i am recognizing that music is made to believe in it, and the conviction of when you were young, and everything felt brand new, begins to shift in character and in color. it's still mostly new, but there's more wariness, more balance, more skepticism, more error-checking, less blind-spots, less total commitment, less etc. faith changes from faith in towards faith from, you learn to accept not-knowing and accept disappointment and move on easier, or you at least think you do. you either do this, or you do the same old shit, going round and round in circles, not learning lessons. triumphs become more minor in character, more as a product of and as discipline itself. and luck (tho you know it's luck, deep down).
Do you tend to eat/drink too much when you are unhappy?
yes, i make poor choices rather consistently. don't balance future the state i am in with current the state i am in. i do this when i'm really happy too. i don't know how to feel and be disciplined at the same time. or make health-promoting choices that feel like real-life to me.
How much depression of another person effects you if you are close?
very much, i see someone limping and i feel a terrible sense of tragedy. pre-packaged emotions are even worse.
Are you often afraid that you will buy a wrong product and poison people which you love?
like, um, cell phone usage? artificial sweeteners? soft plastics? nitrates? is this a joke or is it serious?
i do occasionally have a cook everything that has recently moved past the expiration date in the fridge day. so maybe.