Every day is a rerun and the laughter is always canned

[Avocado]

Where do you find your sense of purpose in life?

 

[Siúil a Rúin]

Saving puppies.

 

[Norrsken]

smoke weed erryday

 

[Magic Poriferan]

Ricky?

 

[Lord Lavender]

Eat pizza

 

[Gone]

Why do you need purpose if you can have fun instead?

 

[magpie]

Stop looking. Purpose doesn't like desperation. It'll fall into your lap.

 

[Forever]

This sounds like such a sad thread..

 

[Avocado]

Why do you need purpose if you can have fun instead?

Nothing is fun anymore. I've seen it all, pretty much. Then again, I'm pretty sure there isn't much of a point to anything beyond just keeping the lights on and staying in the rat race. Of course, we will all be dead soon, so I guess that doesn't really matter either.

 

[Hawthorne]

I can't read the title of this thread without thinking of this song.

 

[Abendrot]

Art.

Experiencing art: Music, literature, paintings, architecture, movies, it doesn't matter. Good art can be used to elevate the mind and inspire people.

Creating art: I experience the world, process my experiences, and then endow them with an aesthetic through artistic expression. It is this art which gives meaning and justification to the dreary experience of existence.

Becoming art: Every action and every achievement is a brushstroke on the canvas of the self, and every hardship is an opportunity to realize the self's potential. I envision a cohesive life-aesthete and use it to define what is virtuous and great. Then, I act pragmatically to manifest these concepts into reality by transforming the self, and by helping others to do the same. The way I see it, when something or someone has aesthetic value, its existence is justified.

 

[Avocado]

Art.

Experiencing art: Music, literature, paintings, architecture, movies, it doesn't matter. Good art can be used to elevate the mind and inspire people.

Creating art: I experience the world, process my experiences, and then endow them with an aesthetic through artistic expression. It is this art which gives meaning and justification to the dreary experience of existence.

Becoming art: Every action and every achievement is a brushstroke on the canvas of the self, and every hardship is an opportunity to realize the self's potential. I envision a cohesive life-aesthete and use it to define what is virtuous and great. Then, I act pragmatically to manifest these concepts into reality by transforming the self, and by helping others to do the same. The way I see it, when something or someone has aesthetic value, its existence is justified.

In a way, this is what I relate to most...although I still am not happy.

 

[entropie]

If you've developed a depression, you get those feelings. I felt that way after my breakup for 2 years. Now a few years later, life is still the same, nothing really changed but I am exploding with ideas on what to do in my time. So same setting, different human.

I am no doctor of course but I learnt that blaming the setting could be due to a reason within yourself, not necessarily due to the setting.

 

[ThaumaturgicTheorist]

This sounds like such a sad thread..

Agreed.
[MENTION=18694]The Wailing Specter[/MENTION], are you really sure that's all there is? Are you sure you've seen it all and one it all at 20 years old?? (crept on your profile, sorry). Because I doubt it. That talk of "nothing matters because we're all gonna die" is a too familiar refrain of a depressed, demotivated, and demoralized mind. I've experienced that anxiety myself too many times.

I think I have some idea of what you're going through, of just not caring about anything, every day being a repeat of boredom, emptiness, frustration, and disgust with nothing worthwhile to really get up for. I wish I could give some inspiring story about overcoming it, but I haven't really crawled out of that hole yet.

I also agree that purpose and meaning can't be forced. Those things are felt, perceived in a deeply personal way - I've thought about this far too much and I think, actually, that a sense of meaning or purpose is the mind's default state. That's why lacking it is so profoundly painful.

 

[Abendrot]

In a way, this is what I relate to most...although I still am not happy.

Great! You can see it! Now chase after it! What is stopping you? Start with the little things and build up momentum.

 

[Avocado]

Great! You can see it! Now chase after it! What is stopping you? Start with the little things and build up momentum.

My book I published got a hard reception. I've sold 15 copies in 3 years. Also, I felt better about it when it was a short story. I feel like when I expanded it into a novel, it lost focus and just got too long. I like bite sized works you can read in one sitting, think about it, then feel something. Of course, after my first novel flopping and the times I've tried making short stories selling worse, I wonder if I really have anything worth saying that hasn't already been said ad nauseum. I think people don't like my work partly because my best work flows from sadness and misery (albeit transformed into an eerie beauty), and maybe people buying things are focused on feeling good. I don't know. I do know I get a lot of flattery from people I share the work with for free, and people say based on how I pitched it, they expected it to be worse than it was. I don't know. Weird flattery, I guess.

I feel puny and ugly and small.

 

[meowington]

My book I published got a hard reception.

Who knows, you may be destined to write a masterpiece at age 35.

But I often share your sentiments.

 

[Avocado]

Who knows, you may be destined to write a masterpiece at age 35.

But I often share your sentiments.

Maybe, if the world last that long and if I write again. I have't seriously written anything in 2 years. Just been very uninspired and it feels pointless.

 

[LovecraftianMonstrosity]

You're also 20. These feelings come and go.

 

[Kanra Jest]

Maybe, if the world last that long and if I write again. I have't seriously written anything in 2 years. Just been very uninspired and it feels pointless.

As an aspiring writer and artist, I can relate. Even now.. but if we give up we've defeated ourselves psychologically. Even I have to reassure myself there's always a path even if I can't yet see it.

There's a clear vision... but the time it takes to implement can be quite discouraging. I am not one for patience. Let alone writers block... but I think if we have a vision we shouldn't waste it.