Yaru
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- Joined
- Nov 10, 2014
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- MBTI Type
- INFP
- Enneagram
- 4w5
I have a really active imagination and I can see whole different worlds with my mind's eye. I've always thought it was my most powerful crafting tool.
But it's when people say things such as "Wow, it must be really cool being able to draw things as you see them in your mind" or "Your dreams are crazy, why don't you draw them?"
that I start doubting its effectiveness.
There are rare cases in which I am able to draw something particularly close to my abstract ideas, but most of the times, in the process of concreting certain link of thoughts, my hands seem to change it all and take the lead, taking me to see a final picture I've never thought of before.
When people watch me as I draw they feel uneasy. They say that it seems like I don't know what I'm doing at all, that my movements are rough and inaccurate and it looks like a total mess until I'm done.
The truth is that I hardly know what I'm doing for real.
I let myself carry on by the flow and correction of mistakes.
Since it's something that happens outside my mind I thought it had something to do with Se or Si, but at the same time my unawareness of the world around me doesn't seem like Se.
Then It also seems like my synesthesia level is a little bit higher than I originally thought it could be and maybe it messes with my senses. (example. I can't watch people getting hurt cause I feel like it's happening to me. Also certain words not only have colors but also tastes. For example the word gluten tastes like green jelly.)
So here I am, doubting my type again.
But it's when people say things such as "Wow, it must be really cool being able to draw things as you see them in your mind" or "Your dreams are crazy, why don't you draw them?"
that I start doubting its effectiveness.
There are rare cases in which I am able to draw something particularly close to my abstract ideas, but most of the times, in the process of concreting certain link of thoughts, my hands seem to change it all and take the lead, taking me to see a final picture I've never thought of before.
When people watch me as I draw they feel uneasy. They say that it seems like I don't know what I'm doing at all, that my movements are rough and inaccurate and it looks like a total mess until I'm done.
The truth is that I hardly know what I'm doing for real.
I let myself carry on by the flow and correction of mistakes.
Since it's something that happens outside my mind I thought it had something to do with Se or Si, but at the same time my unawareness of the world around me doesn't seem like Se.
Then It also seems like my synesthesia level is a little bit higher than I originally thought it could be and maybe it messes with my senses. (example. I can't watch people getting hurt cause I feel like it's happening to me. Also certain words not only have colors but also tastes. For example the word gluten tastes like green jelly.)
So here I am, doubting my type again.