You don't speak of death to speak of death. Death is ever present. You speaketh of death in silence even, since in death comes the no-sound. Emotion is like water, so nebulous, yet its affects so tangible (drowning). You are drowning all the time in your repressions, as you mentioned, you are seeking a solution, and therefore it is a problem. Therefore, even by not speaking of either, you are mentioning both, intricately, even debating their very tenants at the water hole, where you drink (emotion), and swallow (death). The solution to your problem is to conform. In so much, you speak of all three, the only thing you need is to step outside the box and notice more subtle forms of communication - such as burps and other bodily sounds, or no-sounds.