akirarainer
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i'm a writer, and I'm preparing a character, I'm interested in how you type it. It should be interesting.
Every time our character was scolded as a child or no one wanted to be friends with him, he thought about revenge. About being taken for granted. That everyone considers him reasonable and responsible and expects that his decisions will be generally accepted correct. That people think they see through him and know his weaknesses. He wanted to show the whole truth about himself and distinguish human arrogance and egocentrism without words and accusations.
Our character started looking for ways to do this. He was very attracted to drugs. They could do exactly what he wanted and he was also attracted by the idea of making it easy and pleasant for him in a way. They could give an external suffering without words, strong emotions and desire, which he loved very much and a way to surprise everyone, because this is something that no one even wanted to talk about, especially with him, because our character would not get involved with a bad company. And in vain, because he was a bad company for himself, and no one saw it. He was willing to sacrifice his life for this purpose.
This idea did not leave his head. We had to look for ways to get it. He didn't want to end up in a ditch or jail, so he needed money. Then he decided to go to a gay escort. It was a pretty logical idea, he was very handsome, he knew how to find this job, it was quite an easy and monetary way, and the most beautiful thing was that it perfectly satisfied his love for forbidden things.
He was increasingly annoyed that he could not show his real desires at school. In general, he never had any friends, and it's impossible to say why, because he behaved so differently. Some considered him the sun, very cheerful, ambitious, he attracted attention. Others considered him too dark, disliking parties, sarcastic, domineering and arrogant. He was both. He was not a quiet man and a hermit at all, but he never revealed his real self, he was afraid that he would be judged, laughed at or said that it would pass and he would become like everyone else.
So now he had two ideas.
And if he did not advertise the first anywhere and in any way and was very careful about it, then he analyzed the second in detail and made a plan how to get it. One day his mother saw it. It was the scariest moment for him. His mother was quite detached and he never knew what was in her head. Now she will definitely cut off all his aspirations and send him to some closed church school. But... his mother supported him. And the strangest thing… His mother decided that the idea was so good that she should try it too. So she went to a big city, and at the age of 17 he began to live alone.
He could throw parties or try something with his classmates. But no, he needed to do it in specific circumstances, to show himself exactly the way he wants, so that no one would understand anything. He thought that if he showed himself in an unsuitable environment, he would be quickly taken under control, he did not want to, and although he would not give up his dreams, his life would become harder and dreams would lose some of the magic. He wanted to arrange everything so that everyone would understand the truth when it was too late. Like a bomb on an airplane.
After an agonizing wait for many years, he did what he wanted. Literally everything. It was not difficult for him in his profession, and although he was not gay, it was not difficult for him to please another, casual relationships were not important to him and he easily got money from it. He liked the money and the glamour that came from it. He spent a lot of money on plastic surgery, on the one hand, it added to his prices, and on the other hand, he liked the image of a very beautiful, successful, but offended by fate person even more.
He did not consume too much until he had achieved sufficient wealth to live only on these incomes in case of disability. Then he met a girl, she was perfect. Very beautiful, caring, funny, she didn't judge him, but just loved him. And he loved her completely. And although he understood that she didn't like what he was doing, she didn't seem to be going to leave him, so he didn't change anything.
IT SEEMS THAT I HAVE ALREADY WRITTEN TOO MUCH, AND IT IS UNLIKELY THAT YOU WILL READ SUCH A LONG POST, SO I WILL JUST WRITE HOW IT ENDED.
As a result, circumstances led him to rebirth. We understand that all his plans were aimed at becoming a phoenix. To be reborn from the ashes, go through the struggle, push off from the bottom, free yourself and become a better person. He didn't want to be him right away, he adored loops from good to bad to very bad to very good, and it was on this that he decided to build his destiny.
Every time our character was scolded as a child or no one wanted to be friends with him, he thought about revenge. About being taken for granted. That everyone considers him reasonable and responsible and expects that his decisions will be generally accepted correct. That people think they see through him and know his weaknesses. He wanted to show the whole truth about himself and distinguish human arrogance and egocentrism without words and accusations.
Our character started looking for ways to do this. He was very attracted to drugs. They could do exactly what he wanted and he was also attracted by the idea of making it easy and pleasant for him in a way. They could give an external suffering without words, strong emotions and desire, which he loved very much and a way to surprise everyone, because this is something that no one even wanted to talk about, especially with him, because our character would not get involved with a bad company. And in vain, because he was a bad company for himself, and no one saw it. He was willing to sacrifice his life for this purpose.
This idea did not leave his head. We had to look for ways to get it. He didn't want to end up in a ditch or jail, so he needed money. Then he decided to go to a gay escort. It was a pretty logical idea, he was very handsome, he knew how to find this job, it was quite an easy and monetary way, and the most beautiful thing was that it perfectly satisfied his love for forbidden things.
He was increasingly annoyed that he could not show his real desires at school. In general, he never had any friends, and it's impossible to say why, because he behaved so differently. Some considered him the sun, very cheerful, ambitious, he attracted attention. Others considered him too dark, disliking parties, sarcastic, domineering and arrogant. He was both. He was not a quiet man and a hermit at all, but he never revealed his real self, he was afraid that he would be judged, laughed at or said that it would pass and he would become like everyone else.
So now he had two ideas.
And if he did not advertise the first anywhere and in any way and was very careful about it, then he analyzed the second in detail and made a plan how to get it. One day his mother saw it. It was the scariest moment for him. His mother was quite detached and he never knew what was in her head. Now she will definitely cut off all his aspirations and send him to some closed church school. But... his mother supported him. And the strangest thing… His mother decided that the idea was so good that she should try it too. So she went to a big city, and at the age of 17 he began to live alone.
He could throw parties or try something with his classmates. But no, he needed to do it in specific circumstances, to show himself exactly the way he wants, so that no one would understand anything. He thought that if he showed himself in an unsuitable environment, he would be quickly taken under control, he did not want to, and although he would not give up his dreams, his life would become harder and dreams would lose some of the magic. He wanted to arrange everything so that everyone would understand the truth when it was too late. Like a bomb on an airplane.
After an agonizing wait for many years, he did what he wanted. Literally everything. It was not difficult for him in his profession, and although he was not gay, it was not difficult for him to please another, casual relationships were not important to him and he easily got money from it. He liked the money and the glamour that came from it. He spent a lot of money on plastic surgery, on the one hand, it added to his prices, and on the other hand, he liked the image of a very beautiful, successful, but offended by fate person even more.
He did not consume too much until he had achieved sufficient wealth to live only on these incomes in case of disability. Then he met a girl, she was perfect. Very beautiful, caring, funny, she didn't judge him, but just loved him. And he loved her completely. And although he understood that she didn't like what he was doing, she didn't seem to be going to leave him, so he didn't change anything.
IT SEEMS THAT I HAVE ALREADY WRITTEN TOO MUCH, AND IT IS UNLIKELY THAT YOU WILL READ SUCH A LONG POST, SO I WILL JUST WRITE HOW IT ENDED.
As a result, circumstances led him to rebirth. We understand that all his plans were aimed at becoming a phoenix. To be reborn from the ashes, go through the struggle, push off from the bottom, free yourself and become a better person. He didn't want to be him right away, he adored loops from good to bad to very bad to very good, and it was on this that he decided to build his destiny.
