Ene
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I wasn't going to do Ni in my ode to the processes on account of how many Ni threads are on the forum already, but after sitting in a conference room full of other committee members and interviewing people for a position in our building, and having it repeatedly pointed out to me all day long that my way of seeing is "different," I have changed my mind. Doggone it, my dominant process deserves its own Ode To... thread! And what do they mean "different" anyway? The things I said seemed pretty obvious to me, but people looked at me like I had just said, "The emperor is naked!" I've been the minority [and I don't just mean culturally] all day long. I've been the odd man, (I mean woman) out all day.
One person, no two people, pointed out that I didn't care what people thought of me today (I suppose that in a way that's a compliment), which didn't bother me but I wondered what kinds of things that I do that makes me seem "not to care" in their eyes.
More than once today comments were made about my "unique perspectives." I'm not sure they meant them in a good way. They giggled and said it light-heartedly, BUT there was an underlying "something." I tend to think I'm normal. I "feel" normal and I think I mostly look normal, but today I realized that there is something that others find "odd" about me, but I really don't know what it is. I guess I've vented a little here, but I think it's okay. I think it's a good example of how Ni can see the "obvious" but others can't see it because they don't want to see it, because it flies in the face of what they want. I can't describe what makes me "odd" to them, only that they jokingly tease me about it, only they aren't really joking. Somehow, I make them uncomfortable without even trying.
I think reference was made to the way that I slice through everything and go straight to heart of the matter and bring clarity to a situation. I'm not sure that most people are comfortable with that, but I don't know how "not" to do that. I got the impression that people didn't want clarity. They wanted ambiguity so that they could justify illogical and unfair decisions. They hired, against my protests, two of the least qualified candidates and I know they chose not to see the facts and maybe they don't know how to listen to their guts. My gut and the evidence in front of me told me to choose otherwise, so I did. I just got out-voted. Still, in addition, the candidates I pushed for had credentials, objective materials to document that they were the most experienced and best qualified, but apparently we hire based on who a person is kin to and what social circle she's a part of. So sad, but that's small town politics. I guess.
Oh, well, my gut tells me that it'll all come out in the wash but that the council did "somebody" wrong today. I hope she gets a job somewhere else making more money. She is a hard worker with a good track record. Her only "fault" is not being born in the "right" family, meaning one of the few that run this town. Of course, that's the elephant in the room, the one none of us are supposed to see, but it's an elephant, so I can't NOT see it. It's huge.
Still, I love me, if that makes any sense. I am at home in my Ni-dom. It's a comfortable place for me, until I have to take it out into a world that sees it as foreign.
One person, no two people, pointed out that I didn't care what people thought of me today (I suppose that in a way that's a compliment), which didn't bother me but I wondered what kinds of things that I do that makes me seem "not to care" in their eyes.
More than once today comments were made about my "unique perspectives." I'm not sure they meant them in a good way. They giggled and said it light-heartedly, BUT there was an underlying "something." I tend to think I'm normal. I "feel" normal and I think I mostly look normal, but today I realized that there is something that others find "odd" about me, but I really don't know what it is. I guess I've vented a little here, but I think it's okay. I think it's a good example of how Ni can see the "obvious" but others can't see it because they don't want to see it, because it flies in the face of what they want. I can't describe what makes me "odd" to them, only that they jokingly tease me about it, only they aren't really joking. Somehow, I make them uncomfortable without even trying.
I think reference was made to the way that I slice through everything and go straight to heart of the matter and bring clarity to a situation. I'm not sure that most people are comfortable with that, but I don't know how "not" to do that. I got the impression that people didn't want clarity. They wanted ambiguity so that they could justify illogical and unfair decisions. They hired, against my protests, two of the least qualified candidates and I know they chose not to see the facts and maybe they don't know how to listen to their guts. My gut and the evidence in front of me told me to choose otherwise, so I did. I just got out-voted. Still, in addition, the candidates I pushed for had credentials, objective materials to document that they were the most experienced and best qualified, but apparently we hire based on who a person is kin to and what social circle she's a part of. So sad, but that's small town politics. I guess.
Oh, well, my gut tells me that it'll all come out in the wash but that the council did "somebody" wrong today. I hope she gets a job somewhere else making more money. She is a hard worker with a good track record. Her only "fault" is not being born in the "right" family, meaning one of the few that run this town. Of course, that's the elephant in the room, the one none of us are supposed to see, but it's an elephant, so I can't NOT see it. It's huge.
Still, I love me, if that makes any sense. I am at home in my Ni-dom. It's a comfortable place for me, until I have to take it out into a world that sees it as foreign.