nyxphei
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Hi, if anyone’s interested I would like to get some input on my main type and also tritype and instinctual variants if possible. I filled out the questionnaire and also included some results of enneagram tests that I have done for extra info. My MBTI is probably INFP and my Big 5 is RLUEI.
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
18 year old female, living in Australia (thought I really can't say I feel very Australian). Might have social anxiety.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
Considering either 6w5 or 9w8, possibly 6w7 or 9w1, and tritype wise 469, and if 9w8 459 could be possible or maybe even 359 or 479 (unlikely however I want to explore all options). Previously I have typed myself as 5w4, 4w5 and 9w8. I relate to 6w5 because I have an issue with doubting things and overthinking, and relate to feeling skepticism/distrust. I also have difficulty trusting my conclusions regarding various things however neither do I really trust other’s conclusions either. 5 wing mostly because I value intelligence and am very withdrawn and introverted and not particularly emotionally expressive, however 7 wing is possible as I am interested in new and interesting experiences and ideas. Also there was a certain time in my life when I was quite stressed and became weirdly obsessed with my intelligence and my grades and was very perfectionistic that makes me wonder whether I was disintegrating to 3 because it was really uncharacteristic of me. However, I am not sure whether I am truly anxious or responsible enough to be a 6. 9 is another option because I have issues with sloth and I think I come across as somewhat calm, and disintegration to 6 could be possible since under stress I am certainly more anxious than usual. 9w8 because I am too expressive of anger to be a 9w1 and relate more to 8 than to 1, however 9w1 could be possible because I can be perfectionistic and I have read that 9w1 is more ‘intellectual’ than 9w8.
Haven’t decided on a type yet because I keep doubting myself and finding things that don’t fit me for each type I consider, and also I suppose I haven’t really had that much life experience which makes things a bit difficult.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
I don’t believe in an objective purpose in life, and frequently have existential crises however I see my personal purpose as fully dedicating myself to my interests, continually exploring new ideas and gathering knowledge, and exploring my inner self and striving to be as authentic as possible.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I relate most to sloth, due to being pretty lazy (especially physically), and often not doing things just because I can’t be bothered. I also have a procrastination issue leading me to do things last minute and not really put that much effort into things I am not interested in. I also relate to envy as I see myself as lacking and am very frustrated with various aspects of my life and myself and sort of have a chronic “grass is greener on the other side” problem, causing me to envy what I perceive to be the ideal lifestyle.
I relate the least to lust because I haven’t had any sexual relationships, and haven’t really felt sexual attraction to people in real life.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
Usually people who are on the edge of society, seen as weird by other people or who are just not popular for whatever reason, as I myself chronically feel like an outcast so I suppose I relate to them in the sense of being on the outside.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I don’t think people are very drawn to me, but probably the same as above.
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Fake people, people who are overly normal and don’t express their individuality, people who seem overly perfect and impressive, people who are cruel, overly talkative people, etc.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
Drive – I struggle with sloth but I would like to be more driven in the things I do and put my ideas into action rather than spending most of my time thinking about things.
Confidence – I am not very self confident due to doubting myself a lot and general shyness, which causes problems.
Charisma – I am really quiet and shy so I doubt I come across as charismatic, however I would like to be charismatic in a dark and mysterious kind of way.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I am fairly irritable, and tend to lash out when I am angry through shouting and crying. I find it hard to suppress my anger and if I do it is still quite obvious through my expressions/body language. At the most extreme I can get physically aggressive by hitting/throwing objects and slamming doors. Apparently I can appear quite aggressive at times and it can come on very suddenly from an outside perspective, and the anger dissipates quite quickly too. However, I can’t say that I get truly angry that often.
b) Shame
I have been plagued by shame and self doubt my entire life, over various things including my appearance, my social skills, my intelligence, my abilities, past mistakes and behaviour, etc. I am also ashamed if I do not live up to some kind of ideal self that I have created for myself or if I do not act according to my values/am not authentic to my desires.
c) Fear
I’ve had social anxiety literally since I was born, I was always terrified of people and extremely shy however that seems to improving somewhat with age. I worry about various things, and at times just obsessively overthink about things that aren’t very important, but then am fairly calm about some other things that cause people anxiety such as exams. I also struggle with a fair amount of existential angst.
d) Love/passion
I haven’t really experienced serious romantic love. I do get very passionate and obsessive about particular interests, usually obsessing over them for some time before getting bored and moving on.
e) Conflict
I dislike conflict if I am not involved as it is rather loud and unpleasant however I am somewhat used to it since my parents argue every day. I don’t usually purposely initiate conflict myself however if I have an opposing opinion to someone I will maintain my position and won’t censor myself just to end the conflict, unless I don’t know them well and just don’t really want to talk to them. I do enjoy arguing with my father though and at times will say stuff to purposely spark a dispute.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, etc)?
Issues with shyness and self confidence.
Chronic frustration and discontent with things.
Preoccupation with my identity.
Sense of being an outsider and different from others.
8) What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I study computer science, and I am pretty happy with this choice in degree so far. I chose it because I am interested in something both intellectually stimulating and creative, and because it has a lot of opportunities. The fact that it pays pretty well and is in demand is also an added bonus. However, in an ideal world where money was not important I would probably want to be some kind of artist or perhaps a researcher of ancient languages.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
I mostly focus on their behaviour and the things they say, and in particular how I feel about them and whether they seem interesting as a person.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I honestly don’t really care for humanity as a whole, though I can’t say I am misanthropic but rather just self-absorbed. As such I find it difficult to be genuinely interested in global issues however I do feel concerned about climate change and poverty and in general am bothered by human suffering. Overall I would say I feel somewhat sorry for humanity as everything seems so insignificant in the bigger picture and yet humans continue to struggle for what seems like no particularly good reason.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Music – I listen to music pretty much constantly, with my favourite genres being gothic rock, industrial, alternative rock, metal (in particular doom/sludge/black), visual kei, art rock, dark wave, experimental and dream pop/shoegaze. I find great satisfaction in exploring new music and in particular finding obscure and strange music that is unlike anything else really excites me. I am also learning to play electric guitar however I don’t play it as often as I should.
Art – I love to draw, usually fantastical/surrealistic things. I also like to spend time just looking at different art. I am drawn to dark/surreal art mainly, with my favourite artists being Francis Bacon and H.R Giger.
Reading – I read fairly often, mostly fiction and prefer stories with dark/surreal elements and those that focus on a specific character whilst deeply exploring their emotions and internal states. I particularly adore stories involving a descent into madness as I am quite fascinated by madness and strangeness. I also read non-fiction mainly in the form of articles, with the topics that interest me being science, psychology, philosophy, linguistics.
Watching movies/tv shows/anime - Unsurprisingly, the stuff I like to watch also tends to be surrealistic, dark and psychological, some of my favourites being Hannibal, True Detective, Mr Robot, and Serial Experiments Lain. I also love David Lynch's work.
Programming – For uni and for fun. Outside of uni, I am currently learning to create games and hopefully will soon implement some overly-ambitious ideas for games that I have.
13) How do you usually hang out with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
I only have one friend who I mostly talk to online, so it’s kind of hard for me to answer this, however in online conversations I am not really the one initiating things. I would prefer to hang out with only one person as I feel like I get left out in groups since I am very quiet.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Actions, because people can lie or say things but not truly mean it.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose:
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
To never experience taste, because I’m not really interested in food.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
Regular, bland, cruel, uncreative, fake, dispassionate, simplistic, following the crowd, only caring about status/wealth, unintelligent, not having strong tastes/judgements, being afraid to face the negative/dark side of things, not curious, shallow, closed-minded.
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
I tend to obsess over my interests and I suppose merge with them in the sense of incorporating them into my identity. I haven’t really experienced merging with people however, I always feel too different from others to do that.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are your preferences and tendencies?
Messy, I dislike it when things are too ordered and enjoy a degree of chaos. I like to have a general idea of what I will do but dislike planning in detail and if I do will often abandon that plan if something interesting and unexpected comes up.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
I value comfort in the sense that I dislike exerting myself particularly strongly, like to sleep well, and like my surroundings to match my tastes. However, I am also interested in exploring ideas that make me uncomfortable and indulging in negative emotions, and I am also really attracted to intense experiences that can change my perception of things, such as drugs. Thus I care more about physical comfort than emotional comfort.
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)? Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire? Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
18 year old female, living in Australia (thought I really can't say I feel very Australian). Might have social anxiety.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven’t you decided on one?
Considering either 6w5 or 9w8, possibly 6w7 or 9w1, and tritype wise 469, and if 9w8 459 could be possible or maybe even 359 or 479 (unlikely however I want to explore all options). Previously I have typed myself as 5w4, 4w5 and 9w8. I relate to 6w5 because I have an issue with doubting things and overthinking, and relate to feeling skepticism/distrust. I also have difficulty trusting my conclusions regarding various things however neither do I really trust other’s conclusions either. 5 wing mostly because I value intelligence and am very withdrawn and introverted and not particularly emotionally expressive, however 7 wing is possible as I am interested in new and interesting experiences and ideas. Also there was a certain time in my life when I was quite stressed and became weirdly obsessed with my intelligence and my grades and was very perfectionistic that makes me wonder whether I was disintegrating to 3 because it was really uncharacteristic of me. However, I am not sure whether I am truly anxious or responsible enough to be a 6. 9 is another option because I have issues with sloth and I think I come across as somewhat calm, and disintegration to 6 could be possible since under stress I am certainly more anxious than usual. 9w8 because I am too expressive of anger to be a 9w1 and relate more to 8 than to 1, however 9w1 could be possible because I can be perfectionistic and I have read that 9w1 is more ‘intellectual’ than 9w8.
Haven’t decided on a type yet because I keep doubting myself and finding things that don’t fit me for each type I consider, and also I suppose I haven’t really had that much life experience which makes things a bit difficult.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
I don’t believe in an objective purpose in life, and frequently have existential crises however I see my personal purpose as fully dedicating myself to my interests, continually exploring new ideas and gathering knowledge, and exploring my inner self and striving to be as authentic as possible.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I relate most to sloth, due to being pretty lazy (especially physically), and often not doing things just because I can’t be bothered. I also have a procrastination issue leading me to do things last minute and not really put that much effort into things I am not interested in. I also relate to envy as I see myself as lacking and am very frustrated with various aspects of my life and myself and sort of have a chronic “grass is greener on the other side” problem, causing me to envy what I perceive to be the ideal lifestyle.
I relate the least to lust because I haven’t had any sexual relationships, and haven’t really felt sexual attraction to people in real life.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
Usually people who are on the edge of society, seen as weird by other people or who are just not popular for whatever reason, as I myself chronically feel like an outcast so I suppose I relate to them in the sense of being on the outside.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
I don’t think people are very drawn to me, but probably the same as above.
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Fake people, people who are overly normal and don’t express their individuality, people who seem overly perfect and impressive, people who are cruel, overly talkative people, etc.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
Drive – I struggle with sloth but I would like to be more driven in the things I do and put my ideas into action rather than spending most of my time thinking about things.
Confidence – I am not very self confident due to doubting myself a lot and general shyness, which causes problems.
Charisma – I am really quiet and shy so I doubt I come across as charismatic, however I would like to be charismatic in a dark and mysterious kind of way.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
I am fairly irritable, and tend to lash out when I am angry through shouting and crying. I find it hard to suppress my anger and if I do it is still quite obvious through my expressions/body language. At the most extreme I can get physically aggressive by hitting/throwing objects and slamming doors. Apparently I can appear quite aggressive at times and it can come on very suddenly from an outside perspective, and the anger dissipates quite quickly too. However, I can’t say that I get truly angry that often.
b) Shame
I have been plagued by shame and self doubt my entire life, over various things including my appearance, my social skills, my intelligence, my abilities, past mistakes and behaviour, etc. I am also ashamed if I do not live up to some kind of ideal self that I have created for myself or if I do not act according to my values/am not authentic to my desires.
c) Fear
I’ve had social anxiety literally since I was born, I was always terrified of people and extremely shy however that seems to improving somewhat with age. I worry about various things, and at times just obsessively overthink about things that aren’t very important, but then am fairly calm about some other things that cause people anxiety such as exams. I also struggle with a fair amount of existential angst.
d) Love/passion
I haven’t really experienced serious romantic love. I do get very passionate and obsessive about particular interests, usually obsessing over them for some time before getting bored and moving on.
e) Conflict
I dislike conflict if I am not involved as it is rather loud and unpleasant however I am somewhat used to it since my parents argue every day. I don’t usually purposely initiate conflict myself however if I have an opposing opinion to someone I will maintain my position and won’t censor myself just to end the conflict, unless I don’t know them well and just don’t really want to talk to them. I do enjoy arguing with my father though and at times will say stuff to purposely spark a dispute.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you’ve been unable to conquer, etc)?
Issues with shyness and self confidence.
Chronic frustration and discontent with things.
Preoccupation with my identity.
Sense of being an outsider and different from others.
8) What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I study computer science, and I am pretty happy with this choice in degree so far. I chose it because I am interested in something both intellectually stimulating and creative, and because it has a lot of opportunities. The fact that it pays pretty well and is in demand is also an added bonus. However, in an ideal world where money was not important I would probably want to be some kind of artist or perhaps a researcher of ancient languages.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
I mostly focus on their behaviour and the things they say, and in particular how I feel about them and whether they seem interesting as a person.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
I honestly don’t really care for humanity as a whole, though I can’t say I am misanthropic but rather just self-absorbed. As such I find it difficult to be genuinely interested in global issues however I do feel concerned about climate change and poverty and in general am bothered by human suffering. Overall I would say I feel somewhat sorry for humanity as everything seems so insignificant in the bigger picture and yet humans continue to struggle for what seems like no particularly good reason.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
Music – I listen to music pretty much constantly, with my favourite genres being gothic rock, industrial, alternative rock, metal (in particular doom/sludge/black), visual kei, art rock, dark wave, experimental and dream pop/shoegaze. I find great satisfaction in exploring new music and in particular finding obscure and strange music that is unlike anything else really excites me. I am also learning to play electric guitar however I don’t play it as often as I should.
Art – I love to draw, usually fantastical/surrealistic things. I also like to spend time just looking at different art. I am drawn to dark/surreal art mainly, with my favourite artists being Francis Bacon and H.R Giger.
Reading – I read fairly often, mostly fiction and prefer stories with dark/surreal elements and those that focus on a specific character whilst deeply exploring their emotions and internal states. I particularly adore stories involving a descent into madness as I am quite fascinated by madness and strangeness. I also read non-fiction mainly in the form of articles, with the topics that interest me being science, psychology, philosophy, linguistics.
Watching movies/tv shows/anime - Unsurprisingly, the stuff I like to watch also tends to be surrealistic, dark and psychological, some of my favourites being Hannibal, True Detective, Mr Robot, and Serial Experiments Lain. I also love David Lynch's work.
Programming – For uni and for fun. Outside of uni, I am currently learning to create games and hopefully will soon implement some overly-ambitious ideas for games that I have.
13) How do you usually hang out with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
I only have one friend who I mostly talk to online, so it’s kind of hard for me to answer this, however in online conversations I am not really the one initiating things. I would prefer to hang out with only one person as I feel like I get left out in groups since I am very quiet.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Actions, because people can lie or say things but not truly mean it.
15) Oh dear, you’ve been cursed by a witch! It’s ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive. Will you choose:
a) To never be able to experience the sensation of taste
b) To be immortal
c) To lose your memories
d) To be poor for the rest of your life
e) Or to never experience passion
Elaborate on why!
To never experience taste, because I’m not really interested in food.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
Regular, bland, cruel, uncreative, fake, dispassionate, simplistic, following the crowd, only caring about status/wealth, unintelligent, not having strong tastes/judgements, being afraid to face the negative/dark side of things, not curious, shallow, closed-minded.
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
I tend to obsess over my interests and I suppose merge with them in the sense of incorporating them into my identity. I haven’t really experienced merging with people however, I always feel too different from others to do that.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are your preferences and tendencies?
Messy, I dislike it when things are too ordered and enjoy a degree of chaos. I like to have a general idea of what I will do but dislike planning in detail and if I do will often abandon that plan if something interesting and unexpected comes up.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
I value comfort in the sense that I dislike exerting myself particularly strongly, like to sleep well, and like my surroundings to match my tastes. However, I am also interested in exploring ideas that make me uncomfortable and indulging in negative emotions, and I am also really attracted to intense experiences that can change my perception of things, such as drugs. Thus I care more about physical comfort than emotional comfort.
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